[ My Stories]

Lost

2012-01-22T12:10:00.002+08:00

Okay, i know i did mention in the previous blogpost that i'm going to post something frustrating titled "Religious? Perhaps morally corrupted.". However, as there is really something going on in my mind now, which i can't call it an off and it is equally frustrating, i choose to write it out; to sorta see whether i eventually understand myself or no. Strike something to ya?

Ah, yes, just who am i?

Yea, i'm lost; for the first time in my entire soon-to-be 23 years of life.

Since young, i have been one that think a lot. Why the stars shine? Why the waves strike the beach with white fluffy scene? Everything that happens in my surrounding, always, has a reason of my own. Eventually that lead me to have the initiative in everything that i do to find out, to search out the reasons behind, the facts that cause those i see stand. Entering puberty, my mind pretty much locks up to a reason-answer or cause-effect mindset where everything comes with a reasonable and logical "why". Note that i'm quite different that others where reasonable and logical are following the society norm in every way it can be; instead, my terms of "reasonable" and "logical" pretty much stems from the mindset of everything.

Reasonable and Logical?

That kid that ran away from home? My mindset will tell you to not just look at the apparent reason of "immature", "rebellious" or "not-understanding" of that kid. In fact, i will tell you to look at his parents, to look at the teachers and to look at his friends. Some radical actions will not just simply happen; they always stems from a long period of denial, nonacceptance or ignorance. In another point of view, that kid just want to attract your attention. Yet, he is also finding for a breather, to get out of the miserable loop that he has been clinging on to.

Is it everything has a concrete answer?

That is how my mind works in pretty much everything. I can look up both the terms of "pros" and "cons" of a given topic of debate and eventually depends on my mood that i choose a side to defense of. That to be said, if i eventually choose the another side, my point of views, normally, will still be as concrete as it can be as compared to my original stand. That's to say, i will not have the occurrence of "no answer" because everything that i do and think, after all, has an answer. Pretty much the reason why i can further my study into the molecular knowledge of Chemistry which do not just require one to understand it literally, but also to understand it from the inside out.

Yes, i don't know.

Well, there are, of course, times that i eventually do not understand that particular topics or knowledge that it is literally "zero" in my brain; for instance Physics, Add. Mathematics, Automobiles, Technologies and stuffs. If i were asked with questions regarding those, of course i will be plain and honest to tell you: "I don't know.". However, the phrase "i don't know" itself is ambiguous. One, it simply means i do not understand whatever that is in discussion. Second, it also interprets as because i don't give a shit about it so i don't, eventually, give myself a chance to look up about the subjects and understand it. Ring your bell? Yes, it means it eventually could be understood, given opportunity and chances. Look up the documentary of Newton, you can get a whole literature explanation and origin of Laws of Physics. Look up the literature of da Vinci, you will be expose to the fact where everything in this world is governed by a simple math; the Golden Ratio. Hit on the TV Channel of car racing, you eventually notice that the cars of F1 racing is a streamline built to reduce the air friction. Search for the word "APPLE" and googles tell you that the founder of APPLE MAC, Steve Jobs, is way more important than the Africa's dying children; just a fact. In a nutshell, what i have been trying to say is, everything eventually can have answer, it just up to us to choose to be exposed or no.

just why?

So what am i trying to say here? In my entire 22 years of life, i can say i understand myself very well. Why i'm off mood? Why i'm eating non-stop? Why i'm jolly happy all around? Everything could be explained. Up to a certain understanding and maturity that i can share my thinking to those who come for me to seek their answers for their confusion. Yea, a non-licensed counselor. So be it. I always thought i know myself well, where i'm going, what i'm doing, who i'm looking. Yet, things get tricky down the last six months of 2011.

Just a plain friendship... i hope?

There's this person A, who eventually caught my eyes in the start of the semester. A, well, is not really a person who i'm looking for. Yet, the feelings just seem right and eventually i got near to A; thanks to the help of just one friend. And of course things get smooth and nothing happened. Identified the impossibilities, i slowly let go of A in my part of mind, and we eventually become just friends. Badminton together, breakfast together and soon, A is out of my mind. Well, its not even a L words yet so don't call me playboy.

is that really what i thought?

Then here comes person B roughly after two months, which entirely broke the whole rules of my life. B is no way the same in anyone that i have met, because physiologically, its different. Its the first time i become talkative, its the first time i become stupid, its the first time i become unaware of what i have been doing. Eventually i try to pick up my ways around B, but i got tired, for no reason. I just get tired. Impacted with the examination stress, i shut off the "feelings and relationships" section of my brain. I still thinking of B here and there, but somehow i just couldn't get my mind set right on what do i actually have for B. And after the exam ended, i found myself to actually have B out of my mind already. That't good, right? I mean, since i don't have an answer for B, the main source of confusion for now, its best to simply just forgo it. However, i can't get over the fact that i'm still noticing the Facebook updates of B; after all. The main question is "What do i actually have for B?" and "What does B actually mean for me?"

just trust it next time.

I should have seen it coming, that having breakfast on that morning was not really a good idea. Literally, i was just going to have breakfast with my Boss and his girl. However, since A, after all, is a part of us. It just came naturally to our mind that we invited A all along, some more its not the first time we did. However, there is always what we said a hunch that things will not really turn right. Just wondering why. A has always been having the same kind of personalities i have reflected outside. Shy, quite, calm around people yet comes with own maturity and sharpness. We are almost the same. So the first time to have breakfast with him, it did not really surprise me that he reserved a bit, but eventually cracked up under the influence of Boss.

Is that really what you do?

Second time? Its not really what i expected. The moment i sat down on the table, i could not stop thinking of what A is really up to. A talked a lot that day, tried in every way to ensure that i'm well served ( we were having dim sum), food drinks you name it, eventually its just full in my plate and cup. Its also the first time that A simply ignored everyone to just talk to me. A never did that, because i am not even considered closer in friendship as compared to the others. Well, of course that's not really got me thinking. What most important is, A asked me about TF. I have known for quite a long time that both A and TF are closed friends, but i never thought A will eventually bring up TF as i'm quite sure TF will not want to talk about me. The whole point about TF is just wrong in every way it can be, though we remains as hi-bye friends for now. Struck by the sudden question of A, my mind countered by beating the bush around to another topic; though what i really wanted to ask is, "How you know about that?" There are things that i tried to keep away from A to ensure that our friendships remains, as i do not see myself having anything more than that; friends that can breakfast and badminton together is equally satisfied. But, if A can bring up that question, the most fear thought would be, "what have TF told A about me?" and eventually with that "What have A known about me?"

A "black and white" that never has an answer.

By the time i am typing this up, the questions that i posted have been around in my mind so much that i can't even voice it out anymore. A literature writing like this couldn't really express my thoughts and feelings out; equally means that i have failed to understand myself. Everyday the moment i wake up, i will eventually thought about A first. However, the moment also comes to flare up myself with "why do i still care of B". Round and round it goes in my mind, until the day that both of them stepped up the airplane to fly back to their hometown, i have always thought that i will eventually send a message to B, since A has always been out of the equation for a long time. At the end of the day, i found out that the message was sent to A instead, subconsciously. I have always thought that i will miss B but not A, i mean after all A is already certified long ago. However, i found out that i'm waiting for the messages from A more than B, in fact. Yet, i couldn't still get over the facts that what i actually have felt with B the days i spent with B.

Hell yea, no answer at all.

So, together with A and B, as uncommon and different as they are, stir up my rational and logical thoughts of mine. For the first time of my life, i have lost myself and i have no answers for everything about A and B.

3rd Semester: To Hell with It

2012-01-20T02:03:00.000+08:00

Finally, the exam is over; actually it was over few days ago but all that i managed to get myself into was excessive gaming (talk about Assassin Creed Brotherhood :D) and extensively drama-burning (laid my hands on a hot hunks-filled, adrenaline-boosted, dinosaur elemental Terra Nova; speak of dino roaring?), and not to mention midnight reading Jodi Picoult's "The Pact"; even my boss aka Mr. Lim surrendered just to the cover of the book, LOLed. Now, titled "To Hell With It", pretty much explained that this semester was not really that thrilling and exciting. Though to some point there were things that made up the memories of 3rd Semester; some that even stays intact up until now and i don't see the reason that the bonded friendship will fade in any sooner.

Yes!!!

Well, unless im being a jerk to actually not travel over to West Msia since that friend of mine, and his girlfriend, pretty much invited me for endless times already. Named him Boss :D We both have the same surname, Chung, and funny enough we are born on the same year, same month, just im one day older and he is one day younger; now that's something. Couldn't believe that my senior actually is just one day younger than me? We are both the members of the student council of my faculty; he was the Treasurer, and i was just a mere Vice Lead of my course. Though situation reverses that im the new president, and he happily retired; best joke always is "don't get yourself sign up for my batch of leading, Boss, else we are graduating together. haha!" We became fast friends through those school projects, both of us filled each other in with what each other's lack off.

Oh Yes, Boss and his Lady likes cats alot!

He is good in maths, im not. I'm with my leadership charm (as he said, don't ask me), he with his quick thinking. So end up we became Tag Team in almost every projects we ran, cool huh? In one the first projects we done together, there is another guy, who is Boss's friend at first, become fast friend too. Fate plays her role, end up this guy, is born 5 days younger than me, 4 days younger than Boss, and surprisingly, he has a name Chung in the middle, though he is not sur-named Chung. :D Anyhow, this guy, which both Boss and I nicked him Mr. Powerful, is because he is really powerful in everything as long as he wants to; badminton, logistic, talking, and even leading. And his badminton skills, wow! And of course is Boss's mdm, well, with her, i learn alot just to ace my leadership skills though :D These three people, are those that left something bright and colorful in my 3rd semester. Treasure it, of course. Maintain it, sure do.

Oh this includes R.S., E.A, A.Y, though. :D

This semester, academic wise, i really learnt alot, from the concept of Physical Chemistry II, i finally got the chance to learn something that i have always wanted to learn on; Pure Chemistry. It really is hard, for the fact that im bad in Physics and Maths, but PCII makes me see the whole world differently. Defining spontaneous and non-spontaneous reactions are just something different than usual; whoever have thought that Melting and Freezing are BOTH spontaneous? Well, in another sense, Freezing IS a spontaneous reaction, provided certain conditions are met though. And then PCII discussed the location, behavior of the atoms and electrons MICROSCALELY. Wow, didnt even expect myself to remember all these though. Another sense would be Organic Chemistry II, which explains the needs of industrial knowledge on OC field that how to produce a certain compound from a just-not-related-at-all compound. Its cool, especially for those who intend to pursuit medical fields, but not for me though. Though i pretty much suffered this semester for this subject, but eventually aced it pretty well instead.

Wonder if i become such cool huh?

Wonder why? My basics are too strong from tuitioning. LOLed. Another subject to be mentioned would be Materials Sciences; supposely Nano Materials but the lecturer changes it to suit the current trend, we learnt ceramic, composite, metal alloy, microscopes, solid fractures and alot in this subject that i thought im an engineer though. Well in another words, i do after all. This subject is really interesting as it goes, and guess what, the one that stressed me to the max in my entire study life of more than 15 years is this subject; two days straight i couldn't sleep even though i was mentally and physically exhausted. I reluctantly forced myself to sleep for two hours before the exam just to get a clearer mind; and ended up the questions are far more easy than i thought. Tsk, but worth it. Other subjects are just a fair deal, normal; expecting normal.

Permanent Head Damage, Anyone?

Friendship wise, other than the Trio i mentioned up there, seriously this whole semester my relationship web is tested to the maximum that i hold myself into my cocoon, once again. Seriously, for those who know me well, i listen to just everything you say without any doubts. I can put up my fists and minds just to save you from being killed in any sense that you don't want. I can outbreak whatever laws that hold me from being a good citizen just to get there the moment you called me for help (although i sometimes am late?). I can also offer anything that i have should you simply ask me for it. But that, i can't do no more. After all im not a puppet, i don't have a string attached to me by Francis the Puppeteer in MapleStory that i don't have feelings. From horoschope view, im a Libra; a goddamn SCALE. When i weigh myself a fifty for you, not necessarily that you have to weigh me back a fifty, less than that im still fine with it. Guess what, i can even give you a 200% and just expecting you to give me a 100% as return. ALL THESE, are true, as long as i SEE you as a genuine friend. Well, to say, you are not going to get all that when i officially declared that you are an "outcast" in my social web; i don't even freaking mind that im the lone alpha wolf in the end of the world you know?

Hell yea

I don't need you to actually survive, and heck i can survive even without you. Yes, i might lose something like i cant go badminton streak now as i don't have a partner to do anymore. Yes i might not have someone to have an intelligence discussion (debate?) as before but who cares as long as i can get it right in the end? Oh, i forgot that for all the reasons in the world, you all need me more than i need you all. No im not being an egoistic dude here ranting like nobody business. I have a car, everybody says "hi". I got a dean listed, everybody saying "can you help me?". Oh well, what happens when i need help? and that help is such tiny and little that it simply just does't eat up whatever you have in your hands that show that you aced over me? Seriously i have never wanted to challenge anyone. For what that i challenge anyone when the biggest rival is myself? So academic wise, leadership wise, everything; i battle against myself more than anyone of you as i see myself as the loser that going to make me fall than anyone of you. But i just couldn't understand that you have to make me your opponent, and ended up screwing yourself up at the end of the day.

Oh yes, getting stabbed like nobody business.

i can befriend anyone in my life, seriously i don't reject anyone kindness at first, but i reject you whenever you overstep yourself into my defense limit. Please be remembered that people have feelings, even a strong man like me has the softest part in the world that you never actually see before. But to hell that why, of all the reasons, i can see your soft and weak spots shouting all over your bodies and i did my best to not hurt you in any sense that you are always protected; YET you can't look back when you are proceeding with whatever plans steps aims that you have, you already killed me endless times with your words and actions. In this whole semester, there are no "actions speak louder than words", nor there are "one picture shows it all", there are only "double edging swords from the written and the spoken". And sorry, im not a saint. When i am wholly disappointed by you, that's the end of it. Coldness, avoidance; that's what you will get from me. If you realize that you got all that, please DON'T snap back ME for rejecting you, might as well judge yourself first that why I REJECT YOU.

Now even you said something nice, it needs years to just get it right again i told you.

Fuhh, such a long one. It will be followed up by another blog post which i have already pre-drafted in mind as "Religious? Perhaps Morally Corrupted." Pretty much why i said this semester is a to Hell with it huh? Something light, finally im graduating from my brassband unit after this semester! However, as opposed to the other units, we don't have a ceremony or certification giving day that we just simply, you know, DONE with it. Sad. Yet, i have fun in this unit that i learnt a great deal about musics and songs and yes, im already missing the days of practicing and not to mention performing! The rounds and rounds of applause. You can't get enough of it!

What else huh? There are after all a lot to say, but i think i will leave them all for other posts. Else readers might already killing me for typing out such a long one. I know one will, LOL!

Buena Suerte A Todo El Mundo!

p/s: oh yes, im a Spanish Level II. :D and WESTLIFE rocks!

Pushing to the limit

2012-01-08T21:47:00.001+08:00

Im in two weeks time and my exam is over. Not really intend to update the bloggie now but i just have to "release" my tension here. Will post up a full review of it but for now let me say:" FUCK YOU! "

On The Way To Certification

2011-12-09T06:25:00.002+08:00

Now, don't get me wrong; I'm not graduating yet!

The certification here, literally meant R.I.P.

So what happens when a patient or a dying left the world? The doc will say:" Patient XXX is certified at ...." something like that; so yea, im definitely in the bandwagon too. Not literally dying anyway, but confirm dying in my midterm!

Less than 2 hours will be the hardest midterm i ever encounter so far, why? Totally no idea what have i studied and done in the exercise. Sux lecturer, attended the class with 0% of absorption, seriously nothing good come out of this subject.

I really really want to do good in this subject, most probably because it is the subject that is closest to my initial aim of study field, pure chemistry. Duh, but getting a lecturer such as this one that only know how to say :"ini aku pun tak tau, kamu baca je la~" literally meant i'm KOed ever since the start of this sem. Learning it by myself takes extra effort like x N times since i'm weak in Physics and Mathematics after all. Sux man~!

Anyhow, be welcome to the certification of death in just these two hours!

p/s: i only had 1 1/2 hours of sleep last night! T.T

So Far, So Good.

2011-11-21T13:00:00.006+08:00

21 November 2011

1.01 p.m.

Foyer of my faculty

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So far? So good.

That's the only thing i can tell, if anyone that is going to ask me how am i doing in this brand new 3rd semester of my degree. Really, the good should be replaced by "good" instead; its called barely surviving! 9 weeks of no movie, seriously, this is slowly killing me, inch by inch, day by day, there was a time that i had to take a break from everything that i was handling and went off to a 24 hours of no-work-no-study day off; and trust me that one 24 hours of only gaming, nice food, and pool game is just what i need right now again!

As a short summary, i had run like three projects ever since the first week. Among them, two were considered the big big events; Family Day SST 2011 and Carnival Science SST 2011. For both the events i held the position of the vice project leader, while the another one was the Hari Kemerdekaan SST 2011, where i was the Head of Technical. Out of these three events, the first two pretty much burnt my energy, willpower, wits, wisdom, strength, simply just everything of me to ash. Luckily i was supported by few friends, especially my Boss and Mr Powerful, which seriously saved my arse especially in the FDSST, else i'm pretty sure i have a blacklisted memo in the resume of UMS student profile.

Academic wise, i'm not sure whether i am actually learning or no, everyday and every week i'm just trying to catch up with the modules, notes and syllabus that i don't feel like learning anything. Tomorrow's the test, read it the night before, and re-vomited out from my body right after the test. Not to mention that i got a professor that seriously has a PhD and "PhD" (Permanent Head Damage) where unleashing her fierce attack on us is just a plain thing happening every lesson every week; thinking of that, i'm having her tutorial class tomorrow and just a thought of that is enough to send me a shiver because she will say "If you can't even understand this, don't say that you are a chemistry student!" Writing assignments and doing those stupid lab reports are another thing that almost drained me out. Especially organic chemistry that requires additional study of tonnes and tonnes of work, seriously, its called dying.

In addition, i also got a pretty don't-know-how-to-say lecturer for my Physical Chemistry II, which is the new Head Program of my course. He has a PhD too, but i'm not sure what exactly is wrong with him because he will be saying "aiya, ini saya pun tak pandai, kamu baca sendiri la". Seriously, having such a lecturer, i can fully utilize the time to study other subjects during his class, but i am sure to flunk his one though. Other than that, i got my most-most-most wanted to attend-type professor, which is Dr. S in who he is the one teaching Material Sciences and Inorganic Chemistry; oh yea, finally meet the potential supervisor of my in-planning FYP! On the other hand, Spanish is still the same old deal, learning in her class is great but without a good energy i'm pretty much half dying; luckily i'm still surviving with high bar in her class though. Examen? Yea, i'm dying. None of the exams i had get through i actually have no idea how will it turn out. Just hope that things would be fine though.

As for relationship and friendship, friendship wise i'm glad that i'm given the opportunity to be one of the Pembimbing Suai Mesra, in which i befriend like don't know how many seniors, same batches, and juniors! Especially that special someone that appears in my semester start, that seriously means a lot to me! even though nothing happens at the end but yeah, at least i had fun enjoying the moments with you. furthermore, i have lotsa and lotsa of eye candies this semester start, hahahah, mostly from the juniors, :P Just attended the course night last Saturday and it turned out to be such a blast despite of having so many miscommunication before the events; not to bluff but without my assistance the organizer team will have suffered a lot more than that. Hmmm, how to say ah? Lack of mature planning, mis-communication here and there, too high of expectation and more to come; still i'm glad that with that few minutes of mine is able to change a little bit of the ending. hahaha~ and i'm so so so so so glad that i get closed to all the juniors within this event! hahahahahah~ Not to mention i got seriously Senor from Penang that happens to help me strive through several hardships ever since we chatted; i know you are currently having a big time issue with your life over there but i hope you can make it through! MBA, rock it!

alrite, at the 1.30pm, in another 30more minutes i will need to attend the lab again, duh, such tiring. Guess 3 hours of sleep last night is seriously not a good thing to be repeated daily. Oh ya, the election of the Student Council of SST is just around the corner! By next Wednesday i will have to dress up all again and stand out in public to promote myself again, duh >.< repeating the same deal of last last semester. Still, with one of the major competitors removed himself from the election, and also another of the potential removed himself, originally 12 candidates are down to 10 candidates, and out of them only around 4 are the 2nd year while only around 2 are the really experienced one; where am i situated? Guess it then, :P

Okay, signing off at now, and hope my headache fades away~

Cowboys and Aliens - The Bad Boys Kicking!

2011-09-04T09:46:00.005+08:00

Now, if you remember at the previous two posts where i mentioned about this movie, i originally entitled the post as "Cowboys and Aliens - Daniel Craig!". However, as i just watched the movie yesterday, i figured that it would be nicer to change the title into "Cowboys and Aliens -The Bad Boys Kicking!". Why? Because apparently, Daniel Craig, no matter how sexy and hot he is, is not only the star in this movie, we also have Harrison Ford a.k.a. Uncle Indiana Jones in this movie! Then we also have Sam Rockwell, in which i don't quite remember any movies that he led but i do recognize him that played a great messed-up-bartender, and also not to mention a brand new eye candy in this movie, Adam Beach, a Canadian Saulteaux, who cast as the wing-man of Harrison Ford; who says only the British boys and White Americans are hot? Wait till you see the American natives. All in all, this movie is just cast by a lot of different guys, which portrayed a significant blur line of good and evil, therefore might as well named the title "Cowboys and Aliens - The Bad Boys Kicking!" (you will know why there is not a clear opposition of good and evil)

Practically the symbolic move of this movie. XD

Okay, generally, this movie is an awesome piece of work. For those who commented to me that "Rise of the Planets of the Apes" is better than Cowboys, i will surely vote an opposition ticket to you. Sorry, if you have read my review on Apes, you will know what it is because the title has already said it all, "Oh crap!". If you think the plot of Apes let you have a broad thinking of humanity, cruelty, empathy and respect, wait till you actually watch Cowboys; the twisting plot, the way it portrayed, it can surely bring along a wider and deeper perspective in understanding what we say as good or bad. Here goes the deal, when you watch Apes, you will have a, "okay, Caesar is going to do this." "Caesar is going to do that." feeling all the while you watch the 1 and a half hour. However, in Cowboys, don't put up the judge so soon. It will be just like reading a finely plotted novel, in which the first few chapters do not give you a clear insight of who are you going to deal with; instead, it throws you into a mist of confusion of who are the badass after all. (well for Cowboys its obvious, the Aliens; but how are the Cowboys ever have their fate and destiny cross with the evil, murderous and gross grey headed Aliens? Now that's something)

The core three, from left Olivia Wilder (Ella S.),

Daniel Craig (Jake L.), Harrison Ford (C. Dolarhyde)

As for plot wise, i think most of the people give it a negative comment due to the significant difference of most of the movies you watched today. Okay, let's just make a comparison, The Beefy Hero a.k.a Captain American, anyone? Yep, for the whole one and a half hour of Chris Evans running super-humanly, the most important relationship web to be developed will be Steve Rogers-James "Bucky" Barnes-Peggy Carter. Any more co-actors that you have to pay your attention with? Well not exactly except you might have to pay much attention towards Dr. Abraham Erskine and the badass Red Face. Others? Sorry but if you can throw them to the dustbin, you won't really remember much. Just a simple quiz, how many crew were in Cpt. America's team? Errr.... is it five? Or six. Oh screw, i get it correct at first. Yea, five.

Goddammit, i hate it when Daniel Craig stood with his back towards

us because my eyes will automatically look downward! Argh~!

However, in Cowboys and Aliens, for that extra 15 minutes, yea roughly 1 and 45 minutes of movie, you get to understand more other than Mr. Sexy a.k.a Daniel Craig. Frankly speaking, its not just Daniel Craig (roled Jake Lonergan) you are looking at.

-The relationship between the priest, Meacham (cast by Clancy Brown) that tended Lonergan's wound, and also the teacher-student scene of priest and doc (cast by Sam Rockwell, a.k.a. also the bartender).

Sam Rockwell the Doc: Ugh, do we really stand a chance in fighting these aliens?

Uncle Indiana Jones: Well, i have my revolver and you have your shotgun?

Sam Rockwell the Doc: I might as well call Doraemon, the aliens are using Plasma Beam!

Uncle Indiana Jones: Well, perhaps the Native Americans have something up in their spears and arrows?

-The relationship between the sheriff of the town, Taggart (cast by Keith Carradine), and his grandson, Emmett Targart (cast by Noah Ringer) towards the missing of his parents.

-The relationship of Colonel Woodrow Dolarhyde (cast by Harrison Ford) towards his own son Percy Dolarhyde (cast by Paul Dano) and also the boy he saved who became his wing-man, Nat Colorado (cast by Adam Beach).

-The relationship between the messed up Doc and his wife Maria (cast by Ana de la Reguera).

-well of course not to forget the relationship between Mr. Sexy Jake Lonergan and the mysterious woman Ella Swenson (cast by Olivia Wilde).

Adam Beach aka Nat Colorado; a Native American eyecandy eh?

You see, in a 1 and 45 minutes of movie, you got to explore these five relationships; and that's not just it. There are more that i didn't put up due to extensive spoiler consideration, in which also played a big part in the understanding of the whole plot. Well i do see that people start to get impatient and sleepy after a while because its not focusing on Daniel Craig; not to mention there is not hot and sexy scene like the "Conan the Barbarian" and also the actions part are kinda less in the front but become much extensive at the later.

Daniel Craig: What? I carried you for the fucking long distance

and you just reborn in a minute?!

Olivia Wilde: Oh come on, i don't even know i'm a phoenix!

(Something about Olivia Wilde, she played Alex in The O.C. and also Quorra in Tron Legacy!)

So, if you are one of those that is impatient, like my brother, you will comment that you want to sleep. Well too bad you did not see the in depth perspective that the director wants you to see. First hint, Colonel Dolarhyde doesn't be as bad as he first looks like, and second hint, Nat Colorado doesn't seem to be a Mr. Nice Guy as he first seen as. All in all, i would give a very good comment to the director's method of portraying this movie, maybe i should crack up more on Jim Favreau's products.

Another reason why this movie is entitled "The Bad Boys",

they are all "dirty" and rough! Haha!

Another most significant mark of this movie is the soundtrack. Now i am not really keen in remembering the OSTs of a movie, per se. Other that musical movies, dramas, if you ever to ask me what songs were in Captain America i will give you a big question mark. However, the biggest memory Cowboys gave me, in fact, is the first OST it played at the beginning and the last that gave me a feeling of long, lost in the bewilderment in a hot, arid, dried Western Mexico and canyon. Click it, and try it; its considered a big surprise for this movie :P

One thing i would like to mention is, is Daniel Craig leaner as compared to Casino Royale? Let's see.

this is the one in Cowboys and Aliens

this is the one in Casino Royale

Notice the difference? Yes, in Casino Royale, he is much beefy, buff, and hunky; still youthful if you were to say. But in Cowboys and Aliens, he is much leaner, the shoulder muscle get leaner, and he looks much older. I don't know whether it is purposely made it this way to fit the role of Jake Lonergan or else, but still he looks good to me. :P

So, in overall, i will give this movie a 4.5/5.0. Why?

-Great cast, Daniel Craig, Olivia Wilde, Harrison Ford

-Great supporting roles, Sam Rockwell, Noah Ringer, Clancy Brown, Adam Beach

-Great plot, twisting, mind-challenging, oh you think Jake Lonergan is a Mr. Nice? Think again.

-Great OST, "Jake Lonergan" by Harry Gregson-Williams is one the best so far.

-Great actions, aliens vs humans, where humans only have revolver and spears?

-Unique ending, aha! Don't think of happily ever after if you have such an OST.

So, in conclusion, this is by far a better movie as compared to Apes. 2D vs 3D? 2D. Nothing much 3D anyway. Be ready to have some serious violence though, you will see how "uiuk" can it be when it comes to the battle. AS always, at the end of this post, let's Daniel Craig a while~

Oh damn, when is there another James Bond eh?

p/s: Daniel Craig's eyes are crystal blue, but then in the movie i felt like i saw Emerald Green? Can anyone confirm this?

Conan the Barbarian - Another Hunky Beef!

2011-08-31T11:23:00.003+08:00

Well, thanks to this Hari Raya season, i managed to pay numerous visits to the cinema that i kinda doubt whether the ticket seller recognized me or no. Haha! Yep, so as i waited for my warung to open at the night market, i spent my afternoon of 29 Aug at the Growball Cineplex. Actually i planned to watch Cowboy and Aliens (Daniel Craig! *melt*) but didn't manage to due to unmatch timetable. So, out of all the movies that are available, only Conan fitted the timetable so, of not really interested to see this movie, i watched it.

Notice the biceps? XD

To be honest, i am not really interested in the whole plot thing as when i read the synopsis of the movie, it pretty much like any kind of RPG games that you can mention. So what that really attracted me in this movie is the male lead, of course, by Jason Momoa. God, that beefy body. Pretty much sent me into amusement when he first on screen.

He definitely can match the "rock abs, big guns"

of those men fitness magazine

If you haven't watched this movie, its not really a waste to watch it, either in 2D or 3D. Well i watched 2D because no 3D slot for this movie. In terms of 3D wise, i think you will be able to see a 3D more realistic beefy hunk standing in front of you (:P). Plot wise, as i said, is very repeating as the usual this-type-movie. So there is not really anything to expect, but in the middle does lie a surprise element that even i don't see it coming; its not plot-related. Its Jason Momoa related, so if you haven't watched it, do so because you will go @_@.

For the main female lead, i gotta say she is kinda a stern one; in which i always expect the female lead in this kind of movie will be portrayed much soft and noble alike. Well, not for this though.

I like her eyes, somehow.

She is very special in her way, acted in a way that you won't really hate her, and at point amazed of her courage to fight off the evil. Woots! New improvement in such movie eh?

So, if you haven't watched this movie, once again, i do encourage you to watch it. Either as a fulfillment of your childhood cartoon dream, or simply to watch some evil sorcery, or to watch a sex between Jason Momoa and Rachel Nichols; or to simply admire Jason Momoa's body, it still a great one to worth your ringgits. So do go ahead and buy this ticket, BUT please do be reminded that if you have a problem with blood and slaughter, consider getting a plastic bag to puke on. Yes, its very violent.

Very dramatic the effect is.

So, general rating: 3.5/5

At the end of this post, let's admire his body again, XD

Upcoming post: Cowboy and Aliens - Daniel Craig!

Rise of the Planet of the Apes - Oh Crap!

2011-08-30T10:20:00.002+08:00

Seriously, i had been asking around the people regarding the movie Rise of the Planet of the Apes vs Cowboy and Aliens. I asked which one is better? All replied that Apes is a better choice than Cowboy. So last Friday, i spent my evening watching Apes, with a sleepy mood, luckily not a 3D price, else i would definitely bang my head against the world. Seriously, not as what they described as it seemed to be.

Well, the problem is not the digital tech and all, of course, which the digital tech does make everything looks fine. The problem is the plot, in which many of the ideas, well you can expect it that flow like a script in your head. And that's what they called, boring.

Anyhow, this movie does manage to spark a little more than that. It shows the cruelty of humanity. Experimenting on gene therapy has been going on ever since DNA field made the milestone century ago. Mice, monkeys; two of these have always been the usual targets of the experiments, speak of DNA relativity towards the human.

So, in this movie, the target is the ape, which when the gene therapy coded ALZ-12 is used, a female ape managed to incorporate that gene into itself that it produces extended intelligent that should not be seen in mammal. There goes everything is fine until it gave birth to a new baby ape, and she died protecting her own baby; unknowing that she actually was wrong. Well, who to tell animals' instinct as wrong when humans tried to catch her?

And there goes the baby ape, which inherited the new found intelligent of his mother, but become an orphan just right after he was laying in the floor of Gen-tech. Well, of course the main male cast is not going to abandon him, and Caesar is raised in a home.

That's the front part, please do watch the movie for the later part. In most that i think, the director did not finish up the story. ALZ-13, a new remodeled virus to so called off-set the degradation of ALZ-12 works well in apes but not human. The neighbor of the main male actor, Will Rodman (cast by James Franco) is infected with the virus ALZ-13, and yea he is going to die soon. But he is also a pilot, so the last place that he flied to as an infected person, yep, New York. Then the movie ends here.

The first thing that came into my mind is, "what the?" The second thing that came into my mind is, "there is a sequel to this?!" Oh crap. I hate it that way though, i was expecting it is a full movie. So yea, Ape 2 Ape 3 Ape 4 perhaps if 2012 doesn't doom the world.

General opinion, 3/5. Reason-

1. Not really a wow movie in which everything you should be able to guess even though you don't know jack squat about the movie.

2. 3D vs 2D? 2D, why bother a 3D when there isn't anything that digital.

3. Weak ending, in which when it ends you most probably will be like, "what?"

4. Surprise elements: there got two there, enjoyed that though.

5. Not really have a very eye-catching actors, but actress is good.

p/s: Next up, "Conan the Barbarian - Another hunky beef!"

pp/s: As this post mentioned Cowboy and Aliens, that one is scheduled to be watched on coming Saturday.

Captain America - The Beefy Hero!

2011-08-21T10:26:00.005+08:00

So yea, i managed to watch this movie at the last day of screening; didn't occur to me that if i miss it i will regret it, but after the movie i would definitely say that if i ever miss it, i am gonna regret it. Why? Come on, Captain America aka Chris Evans is just beefy enough! :P

Now this movie is kinda a prequel for the upcoming movie "The Avengers" planned to be screened on 2012, let's just pray that 2012 judgment day is a rumor after all. Why? Well before this when my students tell me that there is going to be a movie that mixes up four different heroes including Captain America, Ironman, The Hulk and Thor, my view is "Not interested". Why? Because it pretty much seems like a made-for-fans-movie and not to mention it kinda has the same idea with Fantastic 4; who happens to be Chris Evans's part again, human torch anyone? Yea, i kinda dislike the made-for-fans idea, not sure why but i just don't. Yet, after watching Captain America - The First Avenger, pretty much my whole idea changes that i am SO DEFINITELY going to watch The Avengers; that's to be said, who doesn't want to watch beefy Chris Evan again? :)

Now, Captain America is kinda those heroes that do not really have superb magic power; excluding the 4x faster rate of metabolism, he pretty much is just a plain human. That to be said, i wonder what happen if you pull a trigger right at his heart? Still die right? He is so called not magically shielded; just a stronger, faster hero. However, i like this kind of hero, much more human if you wanna know why. Let's see, human torch? Supernova is cool but hey that ain't real life though.

What that really surprise me in this movie is the digital effort that the team has to go through with. At first, i thought the skinny Steve Roger (cast by Chris Evans, yep, ours captain) is cast by other people; though the face does resembles Chris Evan but hey, at some point i did manage to have a feeling that its a cut and paste. Like a skinny body actor, cut away the head and paste with reduced size Chris Evans's head. Well that's what i thought when i was watching the movie, all that i have is impressed; since it just has the maybe yes maybe no of the cut-and-paste stuff. However, when i got home and checked the internet, there is no data showing that it is a two men work; instead the skinny version and beefy version Steve Roger are both cast by the same beefy hunk i am talking about. Huh?

Yep, still Chris Evans. Impressive enough? So what the team got through is they have to take numerous shots for the same scenes involving skinny Roger, then reduce the size of the normal Chris Evan, then put it up again. Kinda technical and i can't elaborate more on that (else i will be just like doing a cut-and-paste explanation), check the google if you want to know more. One thing amazes me is the co-actors/actresses have to eye Chris Evans's chin when they were rolling the scenes with skinny Roger. Can you imagine that? That sounded funny since you won't be really watching the eyes, but the chin, then going downward what do you have...? Oops, :P

I kinda like how Chris Evans portrayed Steve Roger. Dream of becoming a protector, swear to banish violence and bully; hey, how lame it sounds, Chris Evans played it real deal. When the skinny Roger tugged the fake grenade at his stomach, that particular scene can make you feel proud of him. Oh, and that "I can do this all day" phrase, i kinda allow myself to smile and laugh from the heart.

Goddamn it, does anyone realize that Chris Evans looks way better in army suit as compared to Josh Duhamel? (Both these guys!)

Plot wise, perhaps a 3.5/5? Not really those that give you a "wow", but the fact of bringing Captain America back to 21st century is not what i expected. Only when Steve said there is no safe landing and he has to crash down the plane that i realizes and have a "Oh" in my mind. Good work there. Still why 3.5 such low? Bucky Barnes (cast by Sebastian Stan) dies too soon. Yea, i think its because of the timeline thinggie that Bucky has to die at that scene but that just too soon for me. Why? Sebastian Stan is not bad too; not as beefy as Chris Evans but cute enough. Haha! Anyhow, what that i want to say is Steve and Bucky have not really spent much time together and Bucky has to die already; that's just kinda a drawback. Well, Bucky has to die, no comment to that, else we won't have a Captain America; still, die too soon!

I am kinda impressed by the director of letting Steve to take a round dustbin cape as the first shield he used against the bully, pretty much the idea of the shield of Captain eh?

Ending? Erm, let's say it is what i should expect, though Agent Carter kinda just get cut off at that scene when Cpt crashed; duh, at least explain a bit what she up to afterward. The battle? Err, Red Skull the bad guy kinda dies, too simple. T.T Anyhow, Captain America doesn't have flashy mana skills so can't expect him to throw a mana charged shield boomerang to finish Red Skull; like playing Capcom vs Marvel this. Still, touch the cube, get absorbed, die. =.= Too simple, at least have much more fighting scenes, that should pull the trick.

Co-actors? Sebastian Stan is both cute and smart at first glance. Pretty much the eye candy before Steve gets beefy. One disappointment, too little of his scenes. The picture below got me thinking, Sebastian Stan, according to google search, is 179cm height. And yet when he looked at Chris Evans, he has a tilted angle of around 35-45 degree. Although google search shows that Chris Evans is 183cm, still what if i myself looking at Chris Evans? Pretty much that's going to be a more than 50 degree. Ouch.

Next agent Peggy Carter, a real marksmanship owner, i can't believe that she actually shot the driver in such a range. Movie or no movie, she is really someone. Haha! And i kinda respect such woman portrayed by Hayley Atwell, smart, diligent, persuasive, and all the more kick-his-balls move. hahahaha! Toast to Agent Carter! I think if anyone asks what do you remember about Hayley Atwell in the movie, most of them will answer, "you still don't know how to talk to a woman" in the British English slang. hahaha! That one did make our captain blurred for a while!

Alrighty, this movie, if you haven't watched it, is really a movie worth the cents, but don't watch it in 3D though; yep i did and i regret that. Because it is not flashy and digital enough to need a 3D specs for ya to enjoy it. nope, nothing really 3D there. So, a 2D will surely do the trick. If you are one of those that just won't miss a beefy hero, come on, Chris Evans is enough to send you drooling. Enjoy the beefy sirloin!

When Agent Carter asked how was he, he said, "Taller". I think you should say, "beefy." !!!

p/s: Why Captain America is the first Avenger when Thor, as a God, shouldn't be way more "early" than Captain America?

pp/s: End of post, let's Chris Evans awhile~

Harry Potter - R. I. P.

2011-08-20T16:38:00.003+08:00

This is seriously a late post.

Finally i watched Harry Potter, well not exactly i watched it today, but i did watch it back when it was already screened for two weeks. Now, i have to say,

i don't really have high hope for the last past of this movie; i don't know, its just so. Reason? I think it pretty much is because the fact that you have probably guessed out all the mysteries even you didn't read the book; for one, i didn't read the book but i probably had the whole script in my head before watching it.

This is why i always against that the last movie is divided into two parts. Well yea, to respect the book and the author, the director can't really shorten everything into one movie, which practically cut off many scenes by then. However, dividing it into two part doesn't seem much a brilliant idea since well, audiences can guess out the part 2 and thus leave a feeling of unsatisfied.

Yep, i have asked around; a lot did say that it kinda dull. Anyhow, let's stop the ranting and review it already.

The movie itself is kinda okay, didn't watch the 3D to save some money for better films, overall is just giving the audience the sum of the plot. If you happen to be one of those that didn't watch Ep1 until Ep7 part 1, don't worry. This is because Part 2 is going to give you a whole movie rewind from Ep1. So you won't really feel out of connection since you are going to be connected again.

The plot? Nothing much, because it is going to way i predicted; exactly. The only surprise would be when Gryffindor sword reappeared in the Sorting Hat during the last battle with Voldemort. Well, who would expct Nevile Longbottom to be as the chosen all of a sudden? Hahaha.

As for the ending, oh yea, how amazing that Harry, Ron and Hermione, including Ginny, were made up to be adults; they even have kids! hahahaha, that's the funny part.

Anyhow, Harry Potter series finally ended. Unlike any other fans that happen to so want another movie to do with it, i practically don't. Why? It is dragged way too long. When something is dragged so much, it loses the whole meaning to it. So, it ends well; although part 2 is less amazing than i expected to be, still, like the Eldest Wand, be snapped and be thrown.

The End.

p/s: Next up, Captain America - The Beefy Hero!

Ranting

2011-08-05T17:14:00.002+08:00

Ranting, according to www.thefreedictionary.com/ranting, is defined as:

v. rant·ed, rant·ing, rants

v.intr.

To speak or write in an angry or violent manner; rave.

v.tr.

To utter or express with violence or extravagance: a dictator who ranted his vitriol onto a captive audience.

1. Violent or extravagant speech or writing.

2. A speech or piece of writing that incites anger or violence: "The vast majority [of teenagers logged onto the Internet] did not encounter recipes for pipe bombs or deranged

rants about white supremacy" (Daniel Okrent).

3. Chiefly British Wild or uproarious merriment.

So, practically, it means RANTING aka complaining here and there, which most of the time, is meaningless. No, the dictionary did not have the "meaningless" added into the definition, i add it. Why? Because i saw a lot of ranting, lately.

This gotta traced back into the day i became the timb.exco of my course, industrial chemistry, in my own faculty, the School of Science and Technology. Well, not that i did not hear of any sorta the same type of complaints, but its just that i heard more, and wider aspects after i became one.

Ok, my course friends from Peninsular Malaysia aka Semanjung aka KL-langs, Johorians, Melakans, etc always complain to me that Sabah is a place where birds do not lay eggs (鸟不生蛋), sorry the translation is abit of rough; simply a literally. It means where a place that is so under developed that even the animals do not want to live here. Seriously, does it sound so? Last time i checked, Sabah is still one of the states with the widest area of forest, oh, does anyone remember forest is the nursery of animals?

Then, there is a girl comes from a state, not going to mention it to prevent state fight, said that she was so scared to come to Sabah at first, because she was expecting herself to live in a God-knows-where-full-of-orang utans-and-treehouses state. Yea, living up on a treehouse. You know at that moment i so wanted to raise my orang utan-alike hand and said, "ah, miss, it happens that the tree house that i live in, as you said, has a very modern equipment such as wi-fi, water and electricity supply, tv, laptop and air-con, oh, not to mention Astro." Check the books inside your head, did you actually read something that said Sabah is such underdeveloped that we still live on top of tree house? Yea, its a very green friendly tree house in that case.

After that, even more rants saying Sabah has a very high living cost. Everything is costly here. Range from the food you eat everyday, to the clothes you wear everyday, and to the transport fee you use everyday; costly. Seriously, don't blame on Sabah for this. Those that come from Semanjung seems to forgot that the electricity that won't stop for 24/7 at there is generated from Sarawak mostly followed by Sabah. The furniture that they sit on mostly are the woods cut from Sabah and Sarawak. Oh, not to mention that the petrol, which they complain for sky high price, they used everyday comes directly from Sarawak mostly again. Ah, what about cooking oil? Anyone of you happens to go to a Sabah local store and the worker tells you cooking oil is having a crisis? Yep, its a shortage now. Wait wait, i thought Sabah has the most kelapa sawit fields? Where does the cooking oil go then? Ah, isn't it to the other side again?

Well of course there are more from my own friends, but i don't feel like listing them one by one, its tiring. Now there is a girl, argued back to me that, Sabah is underdeveloped, Sabah is having high cost of living standard, is all because of the Sabahans are not fighting for their own rights, where they should have voted government out. Okay okay, that sounds like a hard proof, and hard to deny, isn't it? Weak state government, manipulated by the federal, that's what you got. But hey, do you really think voting the unbalanced scale out, making the rocket wins will change the fate of Sabah? Think again, because all of you needs the materials and supplies from us. One day your men do not change the mindset of treating us fairly, my homeland will always been rotting.

Okay, let's move to the next part. Since i became the member of student council, i have access to several facebook groups, include my own council, then also of course the university student council aka my council's boss, then also include several non-official university groups. There, these are the places that i totally feel that the youngsters today are, totally, WEAK.

You can read any kind of status and messages at those groups. Let's see, there is a girl asking about the hostel of my university whether it has a individual toilet or still the old school public sharing toilet. Something like this, how will be hostel alike? How will be the toilet like? Seriously, this is by far the most offensive post i ever read. What the hell is wrong with these juniors that they scared the university is not going to be like the University of Harvard? Come on, learn to survive? How can you seriously expect everything is yours without sharing? Get a private house then.

Then there is also a guy asking is the air ticket of travelling from Semanjung to here will be reimbursed by the university. I practically stared at that post with my eyes so wide that i swear i could have won a world record of my own self, yea, my eyes are small. Who the hell do they think they really are? Some Very-Important(Idiotic)-Persons? Not even a single VIPs that i know of actually have their tickets paid by university, not to mention you an undergraduate 20-years-old ranting kid? Come on, wake up. You come here to learn, to study, to grow, and the university has to pay you to come? Might as well slash you from the list then.

In addition, there also have people that complained about the skipping of orientation week. What's the usage of orientation if you do not come within that week? You want to know of this and that of this particular going-to-spend-three-to-four-years university yet you do not want to join the orientation week? Although there are just too much of talks that you need to attend to during that week, but it is really informative and at least give you an insight of how will you be living at here; no matter how mundane the speech could be, no matter how boring does the professor look.

All in all, if i were to list out all the rants from them, i think people will not mind to read it because it will be very long. All that i am asking is, you come to my homeland for study, whether you like it or not, whether you are forced to or not, whether you are willing to or not, treat my homeland fair and with respect. This land is not just land for you to step on, to shit on, then to leave after that few years. Treat it with respect and this land below the wind will give you back something even you won't find it at your own hometown. What more that Sabah is regarded the most "1-Malaysia" state? You will be amazed by how peaceful and united are the Sabahans at there, regardless of their skin colors, and their faith.

Quit ranting and start learning.

Fish and Chips

2011-08-02T10:32:00.003+08:00

Its been ages that i renew the post here, so yep, cleaning the dusty blog of mine. :)

Well, actually i have long been wanted to update my blog, but recently something caught my attention so i ended up get through that matter before i post something up. Yep, it definitely is a title-related matter.

How long have i been not fallen for anyone? Not entirely sure, but hey, the feeling is really something extraordinary when you fall for someone; although it is still the wrong one but i am satisfied with what i have been through, at least i grow from this experience. Strike fast, hold the ground, and act spontaneously. Target won't stand there and wait for me to go for it, i have to walk my way to it.

a Malay-flavored, top with slices of green apples,

perfected with a degree of heart-melting temperature perhaps?

Definitely something that i never did before, i am too routine-based, everything got to be scheduled, planned, with clear proceed steps, and of course not to mention an obvious back-up plan or even a well planned backtrack method; like an escape route?

However, the more i get to become a planning guy, subconsciously, it is also the factor that causing me to become less and less challenging. I don't take up challenge because risk is higher than safe. I don't make moves because i scare to fall instead of savoring the progress. I scare to run because i fear for a hell hound chasing me behind. Screw them, no one is chasing me, other than myself. The fact of i lose the ability to appreciate challenges, surprises and of course non-planned actions, is wholly because of the fact that i am scared to lose.

Go to hell with it. After this time, i really learn that i am too used to be in my comfy zone. Getting too much comfortable certainly won't make me have any fuel to go for a longer road. Its time to step out from the zone, and wander down the valley shoe-less, perhaps taste various kinds of ice cream before i actually get diagnosed diabetes, why not running wild under the rain even though i might get burnt by the acid rain?

Life is short, make it worth. Too much precautions certainly make us live a way more dull life. Thanks to you that let me know this, even though i know that things won't really have a chance to work out, but i certainly know that you made me grow. Ah, baby, make that smile again, and that pair of eyes again, wish you the best with who you love and be with now. :)

p/s: why Fish and Chips? Well, that's the idea. :P

Transformer 3 - Dark of the Moon

2011-07-15T16:22:00.012+08:00

So, as i am NOT supposed to touch computer now, but i really am tired of doing chemistry, hell the fact is i am having holidays but i am still brainstorming my mind with chemistry just for the sake of my tuition students, argh, i guess teacher simply equivalent to no holidays. duh~ Nevertheless, its the path i chose, gotta just endure it, :) (don't get me wrong, i do like teaching and tutoring, :P)

So, i finally got my eyes on T3! Yay~ I watched it on last week Wednesday, precisely a week after the official release. People asked me, why watch it such late? Because i don't like to watch with so many people that you just feel like you are suffocating of excessive concentration of carbon dioxide and also not to mention noise pollution by toddlers or even babies! So, i always try to avoid the peak hours, for example 7pm or 9pm movie time; those two session are the worst i tell you! (from my own experience of working in a cinema before.)

SO, T3, despite that i don't really like to watch 3D due to the annoyance of an extra specs on top of my own specs (yea, i do wear one), i decided to watch T3 in 3D. RM15, not a cheap one, luckily its Wednesday aka Movie Day, i was silently wishing that it better be worth for such expensive price else i will surely bang my head against the wall. Truth is, right when the show started, i know it is worth. Man, the metals, the guns, the ships, the bombs, its so real! I remember the scene when Lieutenant Colonel William Lennox (casted by Josh Duhamel,

my favorite in T-series, XD) and his boys glided from air to the land of Chicago, it is such real that i felt like putting my hand up to grab them, its like they are just flying in front of me, like a housefly though. T.T

Overall, i like T3, although the battle scenes of Autobots and Decepticons DID decrease as compared to T1 or T2, which T2 was the highest number of battles, still it is a good one; didn't fail my expectation. Now, people complaining that they rather to have more metal-clash-metal instead of tiny little Homo sapiens running here and there in the show of T3. Well as i said, i know how it feel that you do not really see much robots battles, and heck Optimus Prime

kinda like get cut-off the scene (yea, he just simply came out to save Sam, duh), still it is the war of between Earth and the end-the-Earth Cybertons. So of course, there got to be more scenes regarding the humanity instead, else, it won't be a need to bring up the whole thing of summoning Cybertron to Milky Way and of course not to mention to enslave the humans. So, just like what Optimus said to Sam, "now the war is yours". As you can see from these two points, its pretty much understandable that why more scenes of Homo sapiens instead; and i don't mind to have more scenes of Josh Duhamel though, aka Lt. Colonel Lennox. :P

Another thing would be the most debated key, substitution of Megan Fox with Rosie Huntington-Whiteley. To the Megan Fox's fans, they simply see this as a defame to T-series; seriously the way they commented, its pretty much like the whole T-series stands just because of Megan Fox. Okay, she is pretty, so what? Its the Autobots that i am more interested in instead of worrying about two sexy ladies? Now, some said Carly (casted by Rosie HW) is not as pretty as Megan Fox; especially the mention of the thick lips. However, to me, which really not knowing how to comment on the beauty of girls, i kinda like Carly instead of the Fox.

I mean, before this, both in T1 and T2, to be honest, Megan Fox didn't manage to put down a great impact in my memory, except the booty scene at the motorcycle?

However, Carly managed to capture some part of my memory, most clear one would be when she was standing in front of Megatron and deceived him to attack Sentinel Prime, now that's something. Its angelic, i tell you, No doubt to that. Anyhow, Megan or Rosie, not that important to me, most important to me is the Autobots, Decepticons and Josh Duhamel, XD

Okay, what about the plotting? I can only say, breathless. Seriously, you don't have any chance to breathe aka get out of the hall to get a pee or something; but i do realize that many left the hall about 30 minutes to 1 hour of the show. Not sure what's the reason but a good guess would be they felt very dizzy.

Why? Because the robots and bombs and rockets were like flying here and there that you sure felt the dizziness; even i felt it too, but hey, be strong, make sure that you have eaten before you get in that 3D hall, and have a great night sleep, and most importantly you do not feel anything particular before going in; a MUST DO STEP. Okay, the plotting, yes, mix with the actions, the musics, the digital cutting, everything just keep the show going, it just keeping me hooked that you do not feel like doing anything but watch. It gave me goosebumps every here and there to, and some more i was holding my pee after 1 and a half hour of the show, still i sat through the end despite that i was trembling because of cold and the urge to pee. Its worth anyhow, because i didn't miss anything. As for my friend, she didn't manage to bite even once for the tart that i buy, she said, "No time eating!" Believe or not? Up to you. :P

Sadness? Yea, my most favorite Ironhide is dead. R.I.P Ironhide.

Now, some did debate that why Ironhide has to be dead? Well the answer actually is also quite simple. Sentinel is going to betray Autobots, so what's the best scene to initiate the hatred of the gang of Sam and Optimus toward Sentinel? What's the best scene to trigger the revenge spirit of a leader to avenge his subordinate? Nothing will do better other than somebody dies, especially somebody that means something ever since T1. So eventually, there are few to choose among, Ironhide, Rat-Chet, BumbleBee and Jazz;

since Jazz died in T1, that left with Ironhide, Rat-Chet and BumbleBee.

Seriously, are you going to nail BumbleBee out of the action for the rest of T3 scenes? Ironhide dies around 30~40minutes of the movie, that means you still have a 65% of the show to go, certainly nailing BumbleBee won't be a good choice. What bout Rat-Chet?

Err, do you really get any big impact from him back in T1 and T2 other than he sorta like the medic autobot and assit. of Optimus? To be honest, i don't. So, we are down to Ironhide; pretty much the reason he is to be dead. T1, he was a warrior there. T2, have to mention that he was just in the first scene, and Josh Duhamel pet him! So, anymore reason to NOT die him in T3? Okay, some will ask, why not dies some other autobots, why must be Ironhide or why must be the core? Well, core is the core, they are from T1. Furthermore, if i were to nail Dino, the red sporty car right just get the chance in T3 to show up, will you have the feeling?

Pretty much is a no. Or i nail out Sideswipe, one of my likey too,

perhaps there will be a bit of feeling, since Sideswipe proved to be one of those that managed to capture the audience's heart, but won't as strong as Ironhide. So, what to do? R.I.P Ironhide. Have to say, director Micheal Bay made a great choice in this, trust me i don't like Ironhide to die too, but choosing him is the best option.

SO, generally, this movie is a good one, sad that there won't be any other follow up after this, but glad that finally i watched it, and satisfied. :) Rating? 4.5/5!

Before i end this post, let's Duhamel a while~

*Melt*

Classic Music! Video #30!

2011-07-13T00:48:00.003+08:00

Yo yo yo, finally! Its the last video! Classic MV 30 marks the end of the month of classic music!!!

Hooray!!!

So as before, let's look back what we have previously:

Classic Music Video #1 - Take That - How Deep Is Your Love

Classic Music Video #2 - BackStreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me

Classic Music Video #3 - LeaAn Rimes - How Do I Live

Classic Music Video #4 - Westlife - Uptown Girl'

Classic Music Video #5 - Michael Jackson - Heal The World

Classic Music Video #6 - New Kids On The Block - Step By Step (2010)

Classic Music Video #7 - Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On

Classic Music Video #8 - Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You

Classic Music Video #9 - Aerosmith - Don't Want To Miss A Thing

Classic Music Video #10 - Mariah Carey - Without You

Classic Music Video #11 - Spice Girls - If You Wanna Be My Lover

Classic Music Video #12 - Brian McKnight - Back At One

Classic Music Video #13 - Eric Clapton - Tears In Heaven

Classic Music Video #14 - Bill Withers - Lean On Me

Classic Music Video #15 - Phil Collins - You'll Be In My Heart

Classic Music Video #16 - Vanessa Williams - Colors of the Wind

Classic Music Video #17 - Celine Dion and Peabo Bryson - Beauty and the Beast

Classic Music Video #18 - Elton John - Can You Feel The Love Tonight

Classic Music Video #19 - Brandy - Have You Ever

Classic Music Video #20 - Judy Garland - Over The Rainbow

Classic Music Video #21 - Barbra Streisand - One Less Bell/A House Is Not A Home Medley

Classic Music Video #22 - Journey - Don't Stop Believin'

Classic Music Video #23 - Beatles - Let It Be

Classic Music Video #24 - Alicia Keys ft Usher - If I Ain't Got You

Classic Music Video #25 - Bon Jovi - Its My Life

Classic Music Video #26 - Boyzone - Love You Anyway

Classic Music Video #27 - Faith Hill - There You'll Be

Classic Music Video #28 - Jamelia - Superstar

Classic Music Video #29 - Gareth Gates - Anyone of Us (Stupid Mistake)

Yep, all the list, we have a range of genre, from pop to soul to ballad, well just too much! Haha!

And today, who we have eh? Have you lived a crazy life yet? Or dance a crazy dance eh? Yep, we are Livin La Vida Loca tonight! Ricky Martin!

Gosh, finally reached the last one, i chose Ricky Martin to be the last one because he is just so hot, gorgeous, amazing, attractive and you won't get tired with his songs, seriously! He is a pop king in Latin music region too!

Originally named Enrique "Ricky" Martin Morales, he became a Puerto Rican singer as one of the member of the latin boy group Menudo, and finally went solo during 1991. Which song he debuted at that year? Its Livin La Vida Loca from the first solo album Ricky Martin! See, that's why its this because its a classic from him!

Well of course to speak of classic of Ricky M., we have a lot to go like Maria, She Bangs, argh, can't get enough of it, XD But, In 2007, the song was ranked at number twenty-eight on the list of 100 Greatest Songs of the 90's by VH1.

that something!

Anyhow, Ricky Martin came out from the closet, and apparently many dislike that. Hell, its doesn't really matter anyway. And i am glad he is a father of twin boys! So, dish that homo-stuffs, will you all?

And, let's dance! This song is just unbeatable, it makes you move, dance, and swing along even you really don't know how to dance, have to say, one piece of classic!

Here we go, Livin La Vida Loca, Ricky Martin! Let's get crazy!

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Classic Music! Video #29!

2011-07-12T00:15:00.003+08:00

Yo yo yo, its classic music again!

Can you believe it? Just one more at tomorrow and i can complete my 30 music video! hooray~

So, today, we are going to say everyone of us has made mistake before, as it can happen to anyone of us!

Aha, the sentence sparked something? Yes, its Anyone of Us(Stupid Mistake) from Gareth Gates! This song is released at July 2002, being the second single from his debut album What My Heart Wants To Say, and peaked #1 in several single charts.

I like this song, this is one of the songs that stuck in my head and won't go away, simply that easy.

So indulge in it, and admit that you made a mistake!

Gareth Gate, Anyone of Us(Stupid Mistake)!

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Classic Music! Video #28!

2011-07-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

Yo yo yo, its classic music again!

So we had been flying to the sky yesterday, today we gotta get down on earth and start doing a little dancing!

On 2003, this song was originally released by Christine Milton as her single of 2004 album Friday. This song reached a level of #1 at Danish Singles Chart for seven weeks. Later on, covered by Jamilia, this song became an international success that it is awarded the "Most Performed Work" in Ivor Novello Award.

So, which song am i saying? Got it? Its Superstar!

Yea, like the lyrics, "make you move", once the music starts, you just want to dance along! So, let's move our ass without talking too much, Jamelia's Superstar!

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Classic Music! Video #27!

2011-07-10T00:45:00.002+08:00

So, its classic music again! Yipee~ 3 more to go, actually i am kinda addicted of updating the list, because i learnt something through updating these 27 videos which makes me to be more "committed" to it, :P

Anyhow, today we are going to go classic again with a classic movie, gunfire anyone? Get me that handgun! We are going to war!

Danny: You're a rotten drunk... always have been.
Rafe: Well, you're a lousy friend... that's a new development.

Yep, its Pearl Harbour!

Remember this movie that was directed by Michael Bay at 2001? Yea, i pretty much watched it over and over again. Other than Danny aka Josh Harnett is so hot that he caught my eyes, this movie is just worth watching and watching again! (argh, just make me feel so want to get the original DVD right now, yea, it has always been in my to-buy-list.)

The fire, the gun, the bomb, the airplane, the yell, the cry, the death, the survive, the rush... everything is just so real in this movie, and not to mention that i actually sobbed abit when Danny died after a mission.

So, what's the song that became hot together with this movie? Need ask? Of course its There You'll Be by Faith Hill! Broadcast along with the movie, this song became one of the greatest hits of Faith Hill and by year 2001, this song made into #10 of Billboard Hot 100, and of course nominated several times for Grammy Award.

This song is really nostalgic for me, whenever i heard it, i always flashed back all the memories of Pearl Harbour the movie, Danny, Rafe and Evelyn. Ouch, i just can't get enough.

So here we go, let's fly in the air, Faith Hill, There You'll Be!

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Classic Music! Video #26!

2011-07-08T17:07:00.001+08:00

Hey hey hey, its classic Claaaaaaaaasic again!

So, we have been having two videos of post 2000 music, both from Alicia Keys and Bon Jovi, two very popular stars at the era of 21st.

Now, let's roll back to the 90s, where boybands pretty much rule the music sector; oh, i just realized that U.S.A military officers really don't go with band like BackStreet Boys, give them heavy metal rock and they will not mouth-F you off your radio. Haha!

So, which boyband today eh? This band is formed at 1993, originally consisted of six members, they are Shane Lynch, Ronan Keating, Richard Rock, Stephen Gately, Mikey Graham and Keith Duffy. Eh, sound familiar? Yep, its Boyzone!

With Ronan Keating and Stephen Gately as the lead voice, the band surely became a hit right when they are starred. Well, one thing to mention though, Richard Rock is out of the group right before they managed to sign the contract. Reference at below:

The Lost Boy

Well, true or no, its history, and i'm glad that Richard Rock moves on with his life of drug-free. So with all the anticipation, let's indulge in one of the great boybands, Boyzone with their 2008's single, Love You Anyway!

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Classic Music! Video #25!

2011-07-08T00:24:00.002+08:00

yo yo yo, its classic claaaaaaasssicccc!

So, yesterday we have a modern R&B, today we go modern rock and roll! and a bit of heavy metal there.

So, i think Bon Jovi, everyone knows them right? A band formed at 1983, they have captured most of the hearts of 80s by then, but to be seriously introduced to the younger audience, that would be when they released their single at 2000, named "Its My Life"!

"The song hit #1 across several countries (although it only reached #33 in the US).^[1] However, it has the distinction of being the only song from a band once classified as 1980s hair metal to reach the top 40 in the 21st century, a testament to how the song managed to introduce the band to a new, younger fanbase. The song is arguably their biggest post-1980s hit single in terms of cultural impact and it has been performed live at almost all shows since its release."

Well with that extract, we can see that how the song affected the band celebrity status and eventually the song that released at 2000 makes them gained several #1 in the song charts and more.

So, let's rock and roll, Bon Jovi's Its My Life!

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Classic Music! Video #24!

2011-07-07T00:22:00.002+08:00

Yo yo yo, its classic music again!

Now, for the previous 23 music videos, if you have noticed the date, they didn't go beyond 1999; yep, not even 2000. So does that mean songs over 2000 it not classic? Well i didn't say that, so today, we are going to have songs exceeding the gate of 2000! ; and many more to come^^v

The song that i am going to post today is dated at 2004, released as the single of the second album of Alicia Keys. This song reached number 4 in billboard hot 100, 2 nomination at 2005 Grammy Awards, eventually winning Best Female R&B Vocal Performance.

This song is originally sang by Alicia Keys only. But the one that got stuck in my mind is a duet version, and that's with Usher. I like the melody, like it just makes you wanna sit beside a beach, having a drink, and hold your love's hand tightly; and that's all what meant to both of you.

So, let's indulge in their voices, Alicia Keys ft Usher, If I Ain't Got You!

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Classic Music! Video #23!

2011-07-05T23:44:00.002+08:00

Hey Hey, its classic music again!

So yesterday we flew back to the age of Journey, where rock and roll pretty much rule the music world. And yea, speak of rock and roll, sometimes i do feel that the rock and roll is much better than the modern heavy metal; sometimes its really trashy, no offence bub~

So today, we are going rock and roll also. Also a band, but a band that is formed from Liverpool, United Kingdom. Yes, we have The Beatles! Well, precisely, i do not really have much memories on their songs, only the one that i am going to post IS indeed what i heard most since childhood. I know that is the song at the moment that i saw the music title.

This song is really touching, smoothing, and all the more important, makes me remember my childhood, so i won't really go into the words, just let it be.

The Beatles, Let It Be!

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Classic Music! Video #22

2011-07-04T12:40:00.003+08:00

Yo yo yo, its classic music video #22!

So yesterday we had rode to Broadway, now today we are going to go rock and roll!

Now this song is recorded by Journey, and is released as a single at 1981 at their album Escape. This song, as described by All Music, showed "an anthem for the young who wanted to feel free and unrestricted", featuring "one of the best opening keyboard riffs in rock." It is again covered for many times, the most popular one would be the one covered by Glee, lead by Cory Monteith (Finn) and Lea Michele (Rachel) in their first episode of Glee.

To my opinion, this song is really great, amusing for a classic. For the first phrase,

Just a small town girl

living in a lonely world

She took the midnight train going anywhere

Just a city boy

born and raised in South Detroit

He took the midnight train going anywhere

This first phrase is enough to throw your emotion into a bit of sadness and despair, that might leave you wondering what's the fate of these two; i'm sure most of us have this feeling before, that we do not know where to go, where to move anymore.

For the chorus, there goes:

Stranger waiting, up and down the boulevard

Their shadows searching in the night

Streetlight people, living just to find emotion

Hiding somewhere in the night

Oh, well, this seriously throw me into emo-ing. oh, and there is one part from 2nd phrase:

Working hard to get my fill

Everybody wants a thrill

Paying anything to roll the dice

Just one more time

Some will win, Some will lose

Some were born to sing the blues

All the movies never end

It goes on and on and on and on

Oh, man, this part i like the most, everybody will do anything just to get the dice rolls again, just one more time. Doesn't this sound familiar? Yes, we all did that before. When we are at our last resort, we will do whatever we can just to save the situation.

So, Journey really did make a classic out of this, and let's go classic with Don't Stop Believing!

p/s: one more phrase:" Don't Stop Believing, Hold On To The Feeling!"

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Classic Music! Video #21!

2011-07-04T00:08:00.002+08:00

Hello people! Its classic music again!

And today, we are riding towards Broadway!

Well, not exactly boulevard but it is covered by Kristin Chenoweth during a Broadway revival of Promises, Promises. So, well after all it is also a very classic song that you won't mind listen to. Any Glee friends here? If so you will sure know this one that is covered by Mr. Shue and April (yep, its Kristin Chenoweth!) in one of the episodes. It is also covered by Kurt and Finn too. Aha, you know which song is it right?

Yep, A House Is Not A Home/One Less Bell to Answer Medley! By Barbra Streisand!

Now one have to understand that Barbra Streisand was not the original singer of both the songs; instead, A House Is Not A Home is sung by Dionne Warwick while One Less Bell to Answer is recorded by The 5th Dimension. However, Barbra Streisand is the first to record a medley of both of these two songs, so she is the original to the medley, which is frequently be covered at the years later.

This medley is recorded in Barbra Streisand's 1971 album with the name Barbra Joan Streisand. Well, to be truth, this medley stuck on my head when i first heard it from Glee. The words, the lyrics, the rhythm, its just kept ring in my head that i can't get it away, and i am forever hooked with this classic one. So, if you are not really in the mood of spoiling your happy day, don't, because it kinda makes people feel sad though, with the title i'm sure you can guess why.

Anyhow, let's ride back to the classic pop at 1971, a medley by Brabra Joan Streisand, A House Is Not A Home/One Less Bell to Answer!

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Classic Music! Video #20!

2011-07-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

Yo yo yo, classic classic classic!

Now can you believe it? Its finally reaching the second tier of the song list, now its the two-third already! Hooray! So as before, i will update the whole music video from #1 to #19, including this one we have 20 on the list!

Classic Music Video #1 - Take That - How Deep Is Your Love

Classic Music Video #2 - BackStreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me

Classic Music Video #3 - LeaAn Rimes - How Do I Live

Classic Music Video #4 - Westlife - Uptown Girl'

Classic Music Video #5 - Michael Jackson - Heal The World

Classic Music Video #6 - New Kids On The Block - Step By Step (2010)

Classic Music Video #7 - Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On

Classic Music Video #8 - Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You

Classic Music Video #9 - Aerosmith - Don't Want To Miss A Thing

Classic Music Video #10 - Take That - How Deep Is Your Love

Classic Music Video #11 - Spice Girls - If You Wanna Be My Lover

Classic Music Video #12 - Brian McKnight - Back At One

Classic Music Video #13 - Eric Clapton - Tears In Heaven

Classic Music Video #14 - Bill Withers - Lean On Me

Classic Music Video #15 - Phil Collins - You'll Be In My Heart

Classic Music Video #16 - Vanessa Williams - Colors of the Wind

Classic Music Video #17 - Celine Dion and Peabo Bryson - Beauty and the Beast

Classic Music Video #18 - Elton John - Can You Feel The Love Tonight

Classic Music Video #19 - Brandy - Have You Ever

So, with all the 19 up, now i introduce you the most classic on the list of 20, it seriously is classic that it traced back to year 1939!

Well, i first heard this song by Shayne Ward, his version is truly amazing when he sang it at X Factor. The last part of his version is just so thrilling that my jaw dropped when i heard it. And from that on, i am hooked with this song.

Then, in Glee, it is again covered by Mr. Shue, at the last episode of season 1, where the McKinleys High lost their regionals. His version is much smoother if compared to Shayne Ward, but nevertheless, its still a good one where his voice with the lyrics reached my heart.

This song, is famous as an original sound track of the movie Wizard of the Oz. In that movie, Judy Garland sang that song, even though only a fist bridge was featured of 1.29 minutes, it still hooked the soul of the patrons. It is an academy winning song. So a serious classic one. A ballad song, it describes the heart of a person when he or she is looking for a hope or something that is over the rainbow, that somewhere out there someone will listen to them, will do good to them, will let them shine, will let them happy.

So, let's fly with the blue birds, we have Judy Garland with her all time best, Over The Rainbow!

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Classic Music! Video #19!

2011-07-01T23:54:00.002+08:00

Classic Classic Classic! Music Video number 19!

So previously we have four classic songs from classic movies, mostly fairy tales, although there are some other classic fairy tales that i didn't bring up here, still, it kinda depends on my memory to the songs, whether i actually remember or not.

Now, today classic, we going back to pop! Now, i have updated the list with many male singers, so why not a bit of female eh?

I'm sure when Westlife covered a song Have You Ever, many traced back to the original, which is at 1999, sang by Brandy. A R&B singer, she did this song at her second album Never Say Never, and eventually this song climbed to the top of Billboard Hot 100.

There isn't really much to say about this song, but all that i can say is it hooks your heart, your mind and your soul when the lyrics said have you ever love somebody so much it makes you cry.

So, why not let's start getting hooked? Have You Ever by Brandy!

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Classic Music! Video #18!

2011-06-30T23:25:00.002+08:00

Hey hey hey, its classic music again!

Now, i have updated the list with several great classic songs that come with great classic movie. We started with Tarzan at 1999, dated back to 1995 of Pocahontas, and yesterday we had Beauty and the Beast at 1991. Wow, i just realized that i updated with songs about 10 years different eh? Well today i am going to add in another classic song from a classic movie, and guess what? Today we are going to hear see some serious fun from the Trios, Timon, Pumba and Simba!

Roarrrr~~~!!!!

Yep, the son of great lion, Musafa, and the lioness, Sarabi, who became the Lion King after he fought back his throne, Simba remains a special character inside my little heart. I remember i was so crazy about Simba that i had my mum bought a hard covered version of Lion King drawings, and the little Simba was just so cute!

Now, when Lion King is mentioned, the great musician behind should not be forgotten too. Sir Elton John, one of the most famous musicians, wrote his all times hits Can You Feel The Love Tonight, which hit #! in France chart! I'm sure the song doesn't sound uncommon to the 80s and 90s, come on, we LIVED through our adolescent with disney, whether we admit it or not.

So, here we go, with the lion roaring, Can You Feel The Love Tonight! Elton John!

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Classic Music! Video #17!

2011-06-29T23:31:00.002+08:00

Yoyoyo, its classic music again!

Now normally, if i have already updated a certain singer's music, i won't be updating the singers' other songs, but today, i make an exception to that because although the female voice is featured already, but the male part is not, and its a classic, so why not right?

Now, speaking of classic music from classic movie, we have Tarzan, Pocahontas at the previous posts, what about today have a little bit of beast romance eh?

Ah ya, i'm talking about Beauty and The Beast! A classic movie at 1991, this movie is made Disney gained a huge profit and is marked as one of the Disney Renaissance movie list. The song itself is voiced by Celine Dion and Peabo Bryson and of course the whole album of it won an Academy Award.

So, let's indulge in the romance of a beast and a woman, Beauty and The Beast, by Celine Dion and Peabo Bryson!

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Classic Music! Video #16!

2011-06-29T00:08:00.003+08:00

Well well, its our classic music video time~! Sorry for the late update lately, because i had been out for the whole day lately. T.T

Anyhow, been having many solo males lately aren't we? So i think of rebalance it a bit by putting up the following music video.

Yesterday was a classic from a classic movie, Tarzan, so classic MV 16, why not also a classic from a classic movie? Guess what? We are flying Indian today!

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon

Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned

Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain

Can you paint with all the colors of the wind

Now, i'm sure the above lyrics won't sound alien to you eh? If you are the 80s and 90s i'm sure it gonna struck hard in your mind! haha! Yep, the classic is from a classic movie, based on a real historical character, Pocahontas! This movie is really a classic, man, i still can't believe i actually sobbed when i watched the movie.

This movie is not just about love, friendship; its about the nature, like in the lyrics, mentioned the wolf, the bobcat, the otter, the heron, the deer and more, its about the connection between the humans and the nature. With so many natural disasters lately, we as humans should think back what we have been doing to the nature Earth. Its time for us to wake up and love out mother.

The song Color of The Wind won several awards such as Academy Award, Golden Globe Award and Grammy Award. Sang by Vannessa Williams, it became one of the greatest hits of her songs. Reaching #4 in US chart. Eventually won an Oscar Award of Best Original Song at 1995.

So, let's indulge in a story tale of classic, Color of The Wind by Vanessa Williams!

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Classic Music! Video #15!

2011-06-27T23:46:00.002+08:00

Hey hey hey, its classic music again! Now as i promised that there will be more male solo singers coming in, today's of course is a solo male. ^^v

So, with Eric Clapton's sad song, i hope, by this post, to update the list with much happier and joyish song; what more could be more joyish than a fairy tale's music eh?

So let's start with much courageous and bravery one, its Tarzan!

aoooeeoooeeeooooeeoeoeoeoeoe~~~~~~~

Yep, that's the classic yell of Tarzan. Tarzan the movie which was played at 1999, managed to let Disney got a huge profit before their drop at 2000 onwards. With Phil Colin being the master OST composer and Mark Mancina being the main instrumental score composer, its hard to NOT remember their musics and OSTs even though Tarzan the movie, well, is such an old movie by now. Nevertheless, the movie is still a CLASSIC!

And when you have a classic movie, you have a classic MUSIC!

So, here we are, with the all time greatest hits from Tarzan the Movie, You'll Be In My Heart! from Phil Collins!

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Classic Music! Video #14!

2011-06-27T00:03:00.002+08:00

Yoyoyo~! Sorry its a bit too late today for Classic Music Video 14! (been working whole day long~)

Well, i know i had just make it a fair fight between the solo singers, but today, i think for the few posts later, will revert the situation to more male singers though.

Its a fine day today? Have you say I Love You to your friends lately? Or tell them that you are there for them whenever they are down? Hard to say that? Well then no worries, because this post is going to help you on that!

A pop type song, you can dance with it, just a smooth dance though, or simply hum along. Anyhow, its great to have such a song that can help us to express our loves to our friends eh? Yes, tell them that we all need somebody to lean on!

Its Bill Withers with Lean On Me!

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Classic Music! Video #13!

2011-06-25T17:47:00.002+08:00

So, is Brian McKnight's Back To One charmed you to heaven? Well, apparently today's choice of video is very, very touching and sad. So if you do not really want to spoil your mood today, i suggest you not listen to it though. Of course i am still updating the list to have more male solo singers, which at the situation now, its 3 females vs 2 males, so with today's update, that will make it a fair fight.

Today's actually is Michael Jackson's RIP day, so before hand, i hope he rests in peace.

Now, it has been many pop and rock and roll back then of the 12 videos, today, i am going to add in a new genre, and its called blues, which is mostly sentimental and emotional. Have you ever had a child? Or have you heard about cases where the parents lost their children at young age? Its heart broken when you heard some cases reported as human mistakes, or even though its accidents its still very emotional.

Today's singer lost his child at 1991, which influenced the singer to write this song to pour his missing feelings and his loves toward his passed away son. The lyrics is strong, yet is very emotional that simply makes you fall into the great despair of how sad it could be to lose someone that you love. Following his son's accident, the policy of windows proofing and etc are strengthen to prevent such cases to happen again. Not to mention this father publicly reminded parents to play their parts in protecting their children.

So, who am I talking about? I think even though i didn't mention the names, or how the son dies, more or less you can guess it out.

Yes, its Eric Clapton with the love for his son, Conor, Tears In Heaven.

R.I.P to all the deceased.

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Classic Music! Video #12!

2011-06-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

Well people, its classic music again!

Now, if you ever realized, i have been updating a lot about bands, boysband, girlsband, you name it. As for solo singer, i just realized that its mostly females. Woots, so why not update it with a little male's testosterone eh? So, today i suddenly thought of a very classic pop solo singing from an American Pop Singer, guess what, he is 42 years old now!

This song practically tells you the feeling you have for a girl when you wanna chase after her. Its really soothing especially with the melody. Well, i can't really explain much so let's just hear it out, alright?

So, who's the singer? Its Brian McKnight with his all times best hitz, Back At One!

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Classic Music! Video #11!

2011-06-23T18:32:00.002+08:00

Finally Classic Music Video broke through number 10 and now we are having the eleventh video! hooray~

So, back then in the previous post, i'm sure you notice that there are just so many boybands that i have introduced, band like Westlife (my all time favorite!), Take That (Gary Barlow is really charming here!), BackStreet Boys (man, you can't take their eyes off once they started dancing!), and Aerosmith (well, the rock and roll style is amusing!). Seriously, there are just too much of them! haha! So, with today we start the video 1x, why not updating the list with something, hmm, more feminine? Aha, girlsband! So, today, i am going to introduce one of the few that accompanied my childhood, its Spice Girls!

Aha, no, nope you boys start to think of their hotness! Get back on track! The song today is If You Wanna Be My Lover from Spice Girls. I'm sure most of you would know this fast pace, dancing style pop that simply makes you wanna jump and dance! Well, pretty be that way since when the music started with the rapping you wouldn't really want to turn it off!

So, why not start enjoying eh? We have Spice Girls's If You Wanna Be My Lover!

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p/s: can't really find a good resolution one though, guess its just kinda, classic (old)! XD

Music Classic! Video #10!

2011-06-22T23:30:00.002+08:00

Hey hey hey! Classic music video has finally reached the one-third of the month! Tada! Its classic music video 10 today!

Well, today's classic idol is also one of the hot singers that i'm sure everyone know. She made a lot of musics, she touched a lot of souls, and she left many memorable moments to the world. Well of course she is still making a lot of musics that touched us everytime we hear it. Now, who am i talking today? For the previous videos introduced, most of them are boybands, only few are female singers, so today, let's update it with a female singer!

Before that, let's list out music video 1 to 9:

Classic Music Video #1 - Take That - How Deep Is Your Love

Classic Music Video #2 - BackStreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me

Classic Music Video #3 - LeaAn Rimes - How Do I Live

Classic Music Video #4 - Westlife - Uptown Girl'

Classic Music Video #5 - Michael Jackson - Heal The World

Classic Music Video #6 - New Kids On The Block - Step By Step (2010)

Classic Music Video #7 - Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On

Classic Music Video #8 - Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You

Classic Music Video #9 - Aerosmith - Don't Want To Miss A Thing

So, with today that i think of updating it with female singer, i introduce to you Mariah Carey's Without You!

This is one of the best of Mariah Carey, that even my mum is crazy over this song (my mum didn't even listen to English songs!) This song is heard by me together at the same period when i know of Westlife, Titanic and etc. So this song pretty much leaves me with memories, not to mention that i always sing out loud when the chorus was on, haha!

This song is covered by Mariah Carey at the year of 1994, in the album Music Box. So i am certain that 80s and 90s are always the fans of this song!

So, without much delay, here i bring you, Mariah Carey's Without You!

Applause~

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Music Classic! Video #9!

2011-06-21T16:29:00.002+08:00

Well, if it is about classic, isn't it we are lacking of one all time favorite? Now, i have been introducing pop, whether its soul ballad pop, blue pop, dancing pop etc, they are still pop. So, today, why not one type of different favor? Now it is still a type of ballad, because there are stories in it, but the genre will be much rock and roll, and its old school! Ok, which song am i talking?

Have you guys watched a movie where by the man she loves went up to the space to prevent a doomsday caused by an asteroid from happening? And where this man in the end was sacrificed for the sake of the human kind? Aha, for the smart one, we have an OST from Armageddon the movie, Aerosmith, with their all time best single, I Don't Want To Miss A Thing!

Aha, this song is really a hitz, still being sing especially in the karaoke. Try this if you really want to have a shoutout at the karaoke and you will really be amused by the impact it brought along. (because i tried!) haha, just make sure you do it at the last, for it really caused you to put all your energy into it that you don't have anymore to shout later. hahaha!

This song debuted being the first at the Billboard Hot 100, after the band was together for 28 years. The song remained as number one for a period in numerous charting and eventually became one of the best for Aerosmith.

So, with all those memories that you carried with this movie, shout along with Aerosmith in this

most touching ever song, I Don't Want To Miss A Thing!

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Music Classic! Video #8!

2011-06-20T15:00:00.002+08:00

Hey Hey Hey, buddies! Its time for the music classic video 8!

So i hope you guys are having fun from music video 1 to video 7, which comprises a series of different songs, and today its another music classic video, and guess what? Today we have Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You!

Yea, speak about classic, this song is entirely about classic. OST of the movie The Bodyguard at year 1992, starred by Whitney Houston herself and Kevin Costner. Well personally i don't really remember i watched this movie or not, since i was still a toddler at that time, but this song sure did kick in my mind, because here and there you will hear it was broadcast through the radio, and it still does so today.

This song is a cover by Whitney Houston on Dolly Patron version in 1973. It was recorded as the OST for the movie when Whitney Houston responded that another song that was supposed to be the lead OST had to be changed. And guess what, this song later became number 68 of Greatest Songs At All Time.

So, here we have, Whitney Houston, I Will Always Love You!

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Classic Music! Video #7!

2011-06-19T15:18:00.003+08:00

Well well, if we are talking bout classic, what about a classic music that came with a classic movie that based on a real time story? Remember bout the love that happened on a giant ship that sank at the sea? Yep, that's titanic! and the music that came with it? Yep, that's Celine Dion's My Heart Will Go On!

Now, this movie is really one of the legends, i'm sure most of the 80s and 90s remember this movie very well, where Leonardo Dicarpio and Kate Winslet played the main actor and actress of the movie. And this movie sure made alot of people cried; they cried for both the innocents that were drowned along with the Titanic, and also the love that could never be forever between the twos.

This movie remained as the top for 12 years that gained the highest gross profit, until the same director, James Cameron directed Avatar that finally surpassed its own beauty at year 2010, by the way, Titanic was at 1997. Although so, Cameron had redirected Titanic into 3D version and is planned for a release at 6th April 2012. So, will this release in 3D gain back its crown from Avatar? We'll see.

My Heart Will Go On is the biggest hits of Celine Dion, that achieved one of the best selling in worldwide. So, for those 00s and 10s, make sure you know what is this song before you actually go and watch the remade of Titanic!

So here we go, Celine Dion, My Heart Will Go On!

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Music Classic! Video #6!

2011-06-18T16:11:00.002+08:00

Well, if it is about classic, why not the classic pop boysband? Well yep, indeed, the classic music video 6 features one of the most popular boysband and indeed one of the oldest, following New Edition, we have New Kids On The Block with one of their best singles Step By Step~!

Now, NKOTB disbanded back in 1994, so most of the fans are from 80s and early 90s. However, a secret reunion was done at 2007 and they finally released an album to quench the thirst of their fans - The Block. It is one of the singles in this brand new album that brought my attention to his group, which is the single Summertime. In addition, another single that really makes my mind blown is the name Single. Both these songs simply make me indulge in their musics and performance that i traced back to some of their old songs and here i am introducing the one Step By Step.

Now the old version of Step By Step is much more rock and roll, the one that i am introducing is much more pop with lesser emphasis on R&R, and it is in the end renamed as Step By Step 2010 version (Yep, it has an official there).

All that i can say is this group, is simply amazing. Jordan and Jonathan Knight, Donnie Wahlberg, Joey Mclntyre and Danny Wood are still as gorgeous as they are since they started performing. And i am sure most of you know Jordan Knight, which also becomes famous and popular with his solo albums.

So, let's indulge in one of the oldest band, we have New Kids On The Block, a remade version of the old one, Step By Step (2010)!

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Music Classic! Video #5!

2011-06-18T00:50:00.002+08:00

So, if it is about classic music, don't you think if someone so popular is not in the list? Now who am i talking about?

Of course its him!

Yep, we have King of Pop, Michael Jackson!

Now, MJ was really one the most famous musicians from 80s to 10s, man, he just made too much music that listing them out could take you days! Despite of his negative rumors or news, i still respect him as a musician because his songs really touch us, the human, in many ways. As he has passed away now, i hope that people will not think of his negatives, but wish him rest in peace and may his songs be heard for eternity.

Now, which song that i chose? I chose Heal The World. Now this is really a classic, compare to Justin Bieber's Pray, Heal The World really makes the world go round, and everyone simply has tears in the eyes whenever hearing this song. It is so lovely, and touching.

So, without much delay, we have Michael Jackson, Heal The World.

p/s: wish MJ RIP.

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Music Classic! Video #4!

2011-06-16T15:43:00.002+08:00

Hey hey hey, for the buddies that tagged along ever since music video #1, today classic music is going to be huge! As in, huge!

Now, i have shown mainly two types of classic music, the blue pop and the dancing pop, well, today its going to be another type, which is also a mix of the dancing type, what i prefer to call it as the ballad pop. Now, ballad is actually a kind of poetry, that when it is sang, mostly in slow rhythm and melody to describe a certain thing. Now of course the song i am going to introduce later is a fast pace song, yet it is also narratives of a downtown man that trying to woo a wealthy uptown girl, (aha, for those who are brilliant, you should know what song is it), so since it is also narrative, why not name it ballad pop? haha, i didn't learn music genre, but its my type of categorized them, anyone who knew bout the true name of course welcome to criticize me. Anyhow, yep, the song that hits the music classic is Westlife, Uptown Girl!

Now, Westlife's songs are pretty much the songs that accompanied us through the life of 80s and 90s, i'm a 89. Their songs are fantastic, indulging in their songs pretty much can make you kill the replay button of youtube.com. And thanks to the advance technology that i can re-indulge in their voices through those shows of live! Way to go, Mark, Shane, Kian, Nicky and Brian!

Well although Brian left Westlife just few years ago, where the four continue the journey of Westlife, still i still like their songs very much despite of whatever the negative things they carry. Especially the Back Home album simply melted me!

Anyhow, who's your favorite in Westlife? Personally i favor Shane Filan the most, followed by Mark Feehily. Yet lately i found that Kian Egan and Nicky Byrne have their own charms too. Haha, Irish dudes are really charming though! Anyway, Uptown Girl is a real hitz ever since my childhood, most of the 90s will have know the song, even though they don't know the lyric they still know how to sing the chorus! So for the 00s and 10s, click the play button and start to listen what we known as the legend!

Here we go, without much delay, Westlife with their best single Uptown Girl!

p/s: melt in their charm!

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Classic Music! Video #3!

2011-06-15T16:01:00.002+08:00

Hey hey hey, its classic music time!

So, is classic music must be a song that is fast paced or make you wanna dance those swift moves for example BackStreet Boys?

Well, it doesn't really need! And that's why music video #3 is this one, LeAnn Rimes - How Do I Live Without You!

Now this song, i'm sure most of the 00s and 10s will not really know bout it, but for the 80s and 90s, haha, it is one hell of a classic! This song simply makes your heart grow sadder and sadder though, of the love and the missing feelings for someone that you cannot hold, or even just thinking of your partner at the side of you, you will still feel the feeling growing because you just don't want to lose this person, ever and ever.

And that's why, LeAnn Rimes makes this song go so popular that you seriously won't really say no to this song. And, the last note of LeAnn Rimes simply makes you go wild.

Okay, without bluffing much, here i introduce to you all, LeAnn Rimes - How Do I Live Without You!

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Classic Music! Video #2!

2011-06-14T15:11:00.002+08:00

So, yep, as described in previous post that i will post the videos on streak for both #1 and #2. Here's the second one and which is from one of the most famous boybands you can ever think of, yes, BackStreet Boys!

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BackStreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me

Well, of course BSB has a lot more songs that just this pop smooth song, but As Long As You Love Me become one of the most memorable greatest hits for its own reason! It just simply keeps you go on and on and on with the melody, rhythm, and not to mention the lyrics! Yes, this song simply makes you melt, whether you are a boy, or a girl, or a man, or a woman, or an old man, or an old woman, you know what the lyrics meant to you whenever they sang the part "as long as you love me baby~"

It is also one of the songs that i listened to when i was a child. It become a memory ever since i grew up, with less listening to English songs. However, life at 19 particularly changes my living style that Mix.FM and Hitz.FM become a major part of my life too. At the age of 21, yep last year which for the regulars should know that i posted this video last year too, i finally recalled this song from Hitz.FM, which was particularly related to my dream, haha!

Anyhow, As Long As You Love Me is just one of those songs that you can never forget in your entire life. Thanks to BSB for such a wonderful one that accompany our lives, with them writing our lives out.

So, here we go, BackStreet Boys with As Long As You Love Me!

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Music Classic! Video #1!

2011-06-14T14:55:00.003+08:00

Yea! So finally think of doing something to my blog, and i came up with an idea. Since i have been indulged in classic music ever since (note it doesn't really matter what genre it is, as long as it is classic!) so i decided that this will be a classic music month!

haha~!

So, today is 13 June 2011 (+8.00 GMT), it will take 30 days to complete this streak, let's hope i am not forgetting this though.

Although it should be music video #1 only, but since i already posted the first in facebook and its currently video 2 in my wall post, so i will post in a streak of music video #1 and #2.

(note the numbering is just number of how many videos i have posted, it is not about the ranking!)

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Take That - How Deep Is Your Love

So the very first one that get in my memory bank of classic music, is How Deep Is Your Love from Take That!

Now, precisely it is a cover of Bee Gees, but i am not too sure which one that i actually heard during my youth, since Take That's version sounded the one that close to my childhood's memory, i decided to post Take That's version.

Take That is a boyband that made up of five boys, namely Gary Barlow, Howard Donald, Jason Orange, Mark Owen and Robbie Williams. Well, unfortunately Robbie Williams was not in How Deep Is Your Love due to his history of drug abuse, but RW is still a very good musician to me, despite of all that~ (even owned two genuine albums of him)

This song caught my memory, mostly is because of the voice of lead singer, Gary Barlow, which simply kicked in my mind and can't get away ever since. I have long forgotten this song actually, and just recently recalled back when the Mix.FM rebroadcast it. Well, no more bluffing and let's indulge in the pop music of the 80s, we have Take That with How Deep Is Your Love!

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p/s: there is a better version of this on YouTube.com, which is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cjuRVFMkf0I, try it for better resolution and audio!

A Bad Dream

2011-06-05T09:25:00.004+08:00

Disclaimer: I'm sure i had posted this video a long time ago, but in correspond to the situation i reposted it again.

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I had a dream. A bad one if you were to question that; though its seriously not bad at all.

Just, why this dream has to come, i thought i let you go, i thought i forget you, i thought i put you down; in real, i never did.

I can feel the warmth of your body. I can feel the sensation of happiness. I can feel the feelings surging towards you. Which all of them i have been trying not to. I wanted an escape. I don't want to continue. I don't want to drop into your web, once again.

But my heart wants to, its not my mind. My heart.

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曾经以为自己已经把你放下，曾经以为自己不会再想起你，曾经以为自己能够走出你的影子。但事与愿违，我的心，再次颤抖了。你那温柔而有力度的手，拥抱我的那一刻，即使那只不过是一个梦，我的心却以及溶化了。不管我用多少的借口，不管我用多少的方法，不管我用多少的途径，我都还是忘不了你。

为什么？为什么我要那么的懦弱。我不应该。你不应该是那个注定的。因为事情最后都是我在受伤害。我不可以去奢望，我不可以去期望，更不可以去希望；因为那永远都只是失望的前兆。明明知道是不可能的，可我的心却不能把你抹去。

深夜里有梦中而醒，想着梦里你的举动，再一次感觉到自己的孤独，再一次感觉到对你的渴望，再一次向把时间倒流回到那一刻；那一个能够与你相聚的一刻。

不可以，绝对不可以。因为那只是一场梦，一场恶梦，即使在梦中的我，是微笑着；在现实的我却一定是哭泣着。

所以必须远离，必须离开，必须放弃，因为对你的乞求，绝对不会实现。

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头脑，不能再保持清醒了。只好寄予在跑步中，来抹去对你的思念。只能把身体弄垮，我才能够被释放。

Failure Is A Gift, Welcome It.

2011-05-22T20:33:00.004+08:00

Yep, holiday kicks in and its time to update. But ah, before spending a whole new post, i would like to share this video to you. Its a clip from the drama series "Jack and Bobby". Yes i admit it i watch the drama series because of Matt Long which cast one of the main roles Jack McCallister. However, it is indeed a great drama, focusing on the misery of life, family problems, brotherhood, love; well in short, life. The main focus of the drama is on between Jack and Bobby, the two McCallisters, who become the U.S.A. President. Well of course it already told us who became the one in the first episode, still, it is worth following the whole drama.

I first crossed path with this drama was back when i was just, hmmm, 15 or 16, when i was still, well, a teenager. Not really the brightest one in the school but the brightest one in the family? (ok, a bit of boasting here, sorry!) With all those hopes on me i began a life that is, indeed, more toward pleasing my parents, now is my mother, for what she hopes for me to become. It is not that i never think of what i want to be, but in every senses or thoughts, i always cross them with the responsibilities i bear to my mother, my family.

Because of that, pretty much i never made any great failures of my life, well of course here and there, there is a little failing and hurt, but it never is those big, huge, problems that i ever heard of. The obedient son in the eyes of the adults, the bright teenager in the sights of the teachers. Pretty much i never spent too much of my time before to do something considered "useless".

It is when i start walking through my university, i start choosing, defining and deciding my life. More or less i still influence by my mother and the responsibilities i bear, however, things that it is always a "no" before, i start to include them in my life. Student council. Project leader. Responsibilities. And of course, failures. That is when i started to flash back to this drama, and here is the clip that i found on Youtube.com and i present it here to you. It is originally titled "Moonlight Speech" by the uploader, but i prefer to name the speech:" Failure Is A Gift, Welcome It."

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"Good evening, I would like to welcome all of you tonight to a renaissance.

For some of you, tonight marks a return to your college life; for some, a new beginning.

And so on the awe of the tremendous journey, a path of which you are all embarking, I would like to offer you a thought to take with you.

Okay, listen carefully.

You will fail here. All of you.

College is not the combination of your high school career; it is the beginning of your adult life. Only it’s a slow, sweet beginning. It feels nothing like what life and all its attending obligations will eventually bring so fail here.

Be bad at things. Be embarrassed. Be afraid. Be vulnerable. Go out in a limb or two or twelve, and you’ll fall, and it’ll hurt. But the harder you fall, the farther you rise. The louder you fail the clearer your future become.

Failure is a gift, welcome it. There are people who spend their whole lives wondering how they became the people they became. How certain chances passed them by. Why they didn’t take the road less travelled. Those people are not you. You have the front row seats to your own transformation, and in transforming yourself, you might even transform the world. And it’ll be your electric, I promise you, it’ll be terrifying. But embrace that embrace the new person you becoming.

This is your moment. I promise you it is now, now, not, not two minutes from now, not tomorrow, but really now. Own that, know that deep in your bones and gonna sleep every night knowing that and wake up every single morning remembering it and then keep going.

Keep going.

Thank you."

Go Green Campaign 2011

2011-03-23T19:18:00.005+08:00

Finally the campaign has done! phewww!~!!~~~ now only need to worry bout the post moterm, and also the continuous effort of recycling the stuffs that we collected throughout the whole sem and perhaps also start of the next semester too~

throughout the whole campaign, the only thing i can say is it is so exhausting to run a campaign without a proper budget! trust me~ this is the first time i run a campaign without a budget, yes, you heard it correctly, without BUDGET! apparently i kicked my timb. pengarah away since he was not doing anything anyway, and my stand is:" no point of sharing a glory with someone that does not even do their jobs." yes, perhaps it is a strong argument for running a campaign without a proper budget is equal to killing our own reputation for things might not be the way we want and in the end result in great loss and might loss our identity in Uni too. But me and my team always hold on to a believe in miracle that just something will happen, must happen that things can go on. so since he cant be in the same status as we were, the only thing that i can do is sack him.

as for our team, we are all very anxious for not getting the kelulusan from the HEP, but in the end we successfully obtained the kelulusan and everything went a full blast. but just went we think of everything is fine, the budget giving encounter problems, because the HEP apparently miss our forms and we miss out the chance to receive the budget before activity. Everyone get even tension as the number of boothes for the go green campaign reduces from 10 boothes to 4 boothes and i have to ask one of the boothes to open up to 3 boothes and they volunteerily opened four booths in the end, so i have a total of 8 boothes, with arrangemnt of meal for both AJKs and rep from the boothes, but i do not have the money to pay.

so we all used our own money that we can come up with our own account to support the campaign, publicity, program, food & Beverage, protocol, sponsorship, all support me very well with using their own budget. Worse come to we were force to use a ttoal of rm1k from S/U to pay for the food first in the sense of worrying that we might not even get out money back.

For the whole three days, the campaign run from poor to crowd and to smooth, am really appreciated for all of the AJKs that participate in the campaign and all the players that come to play and all the audience that make the thing work. without them the campaign will be equal to a failure. furthermore, i would like to emphasize that my S/U did a very good job in helping me along since i always tend to forgot this and that. In addition i do not forget to praise my program and protocol for giving their full commitment to the end of the campaign. Nevertheless, all ajks that help and endure the confusion within a campaign.

things just ended at 4pm just now. and all the VIPs, including dean of school and 3 timb dekan are invited for the jamuan, together with few ketua programs, it is a great experience of experiencing sitting in a same table with all high pangkat person. man, its dekan beside me and he dropped his jacket and i fetch up for him. ah~ what makes me most terrified is, the dean of school straightway found a room for us to be the storage of all the materials we collected that is to be recycled, and i thought that is it. instead, he gave me a full permission of using the room as my office of conducting future go green campaign and thus, without much problems or obstacles in the future, it would be a bless for me to become the first president of Gerakan Go Green(a temporary name which i donno how to make a WOW name). just hopefully my dean does not just simply say the words even though he already told the timb dekan to note down all the requirement of the office is going to be under the next budget. (wow). then things went even crazier than he said if we can manage to keep up the reputation next sem, the room next to us will be under me again to conduct a charity shop for recycled items reselling. (ouch) in addition, he gave me a card of direct contact to a unit korporat university person that if i am going to run an activity again, i can directly approach him and ask any kind of helps from him. frankly speaking, a gold premium card. hello, am i dreaming? i just hope that these are not just some stupid pranks play on me because i do put a lotha heart in it.

anyhow, i felt proud to sack my timb kp for he didnt do his job and now he cant share the glory. no, defintitely not him. else, now i have to cool myself down, to tackle all the reports, assignments and presentation. then this friday is a post moterm and i have to send in a proposal of renovation plan of the room and with a proper name of it. wonder what's the name eh?

p/s: practically speaking, my campaign is not really ended and it is going to run FOREVER from now on!

pp/S: ah~~ i want my own office! XD

一個很準的心理測試

2011-03-09T22:19:00.001+08:00

一個很準的心理測試：按下面的步驟一步一步做，不要作弊，否則你的希望會落空（用３分鐘完成）發送這個留言的人說：她的願望在十分鐘內變成現實，記住：不要有欺騙行為。這個戲的結果非常有趣，注意：按順序往下讀，不能跳躍地往下讀（只要花３分鐘，值得一試）

請首先拿一枝筆和一張紙

一、首先，在一列中寫下１到１１的號碼（即１、２、３、４、５、６、７、８、９、１０、１１）

二、在號碼１和２的旁邊，寫下你所想的任意兩個數字

三、在號碼３和７的旁邊，寫下任意兩個異性的名字。（注意：不要跳躍的向下看，不要作弊哦）

四、在號碼４、５、６的旁邊，寫下朋友或親戚的名字幕（不要有欺騙行為）

五、在號碼８、９、１０、１１的旁邊，寫下４首歌的名字。

六、最後，許一個願。

after filling these up the above on a paper then skrol down^^

結果：

１. 你必須把這個遊戲告訴給（號碼２旁邊寫下的數字）個人。

２. 號碼３是你所愛的人。

３. 號碼７是你所喜歡的但不能與之相伴的人。

４. 號碼４是你最關心的人。

５. 號碼５是非常瞭解你的人。

６. 號碼６是你重要的人。

７. 號碼８的歌適合號碼３的人。

８. 號碼９的歌適合號碼７的人。

９. 號碼１０的歌最能代表你的想法。

１０. 序號１１的歌是你對生活的感受。

讀完這個結果之後，在一個小時之內轉載到2個論壇，如果照此做，了你的許願就會變成現實，否則，就會事與願違

Hectic Semester

2011-03-08T14:38:00.002+08:00

Its been a while that i didn't update yet. Well my bad, because if i boot up my computer, either it is for assignment/reports, then it is for formal stuffs like proposal letters. Else? Hit the Youtube, watch some stack up animes or movies. Seriously, its been a while that i relax myself, wondering why am I having a situation like this?

Back track to this year, everything starts out peacefully with all the lecturers cancel classes here and there; well i used up all those free time to hit the gym, the pool or the court. Damn, miss the days i am working out, now i am like a dead fish, rotten soon. Then, right after the Chinese New Year break, hoaha, don't play play. It is a mess. Up until now it is still a mess. Count it, how many days passed? 20 days? 30 days? Let's see, it is roughly 32 days, a month plus two days. However, seriously, i don't feel like its a month only, i felt that it is like several months that i have not been sleeping well.

Assignments, reports, tutorials; everyday everynight my mind was, is and is going to just think bout those things. Man, it sucks. I mean, not "sucks". I do see the points in finishing all those things as those are the things that will help us to get through the "yuckie" final term. But imagine everyday everynight doing it, its exhausting with unlimited, indefinite and unfinished stress. Man, everynight i only spent maximum 5 hours to sleep, that is also if i don't have anything particular to do in the next day, else? 4 hours is the only time i used to meet Grandpa Chou. Man, can it be any longer?

In addition, i have this "dunno-why-i-chose" brassband section every Saturday 9am. Hello, i sleep only at 1 or 2 am in the morning of Saturday, then have to wake up again for it. Argh, its damn WEEKEND! i don't really know why but still actually i enjoy it, many mumbling will i do but i end up enjoying every moment of it because i am really learning music there; just a little fact where i don't really like the conductor and the drum unit tutor as both of them like to press on the bass unit, which is my unit. Hello, can you imagine you get "shot" in front of band while the drum tutor gives you a "what the hell, you know music or not?" look just for a nothing? Because the real wrong one is the conductor where he notified the wrong unit to start! Damn, its the woodwind unit, don't put it on my tab~! Well, other than that, everything is fine, learning music, like tuba actually, and i skipped the band camp. Reason? i am finally sick during the week for band camp.

The sickness is caused by never ending pressure and stress, from all the assignments tutorials reports and one more, MIDTERMS, that as i, self-fulfilledly told my mind, i don't want to go camping, i am tired, just let me sick and i can pass it. Then seriously at that week, i fell sick. Badly. runny nose. Sore muscles. weak body. weak mind. Man, defeated. So i skipped it. Ah, bout the midterms, this term, its sucks. I donno why but i seriously screwed up some of the subjects. One, the human communication subject. The paper is not hard, and even though there is some unfairness there as the lecturer posted the answers for the students to choose (its fill in the blank type question) in the later section, and furthermore the latter section students asked all the hitns and tops from the earlier section e.g. me? which is section 1. So, yea, bit of unfairness, but still actually all the answers required i read them, but i am suffering from all the pressure and stress that my mind actually did not register what i read, furthermore got a lab going on right before the exam. SO my mind is like a junk can. Sucks.

Oh ya, one more thing to stress me out completely. I am currently the timb. exco for my course and i am running a program with the position of Director. Man, i hate those presidents with "Problematic communication". It is either i am too unintelligent that i don't understand what they said, or they seriously got something wrong when they are trying to make out what they say. Thus, this causes MAJOR miss-communication that i loss the chance to get my budget before the start of campaign, oh it is a campaign Go Green. Thus, this made my team has to use our own budget first, furthermore, its not *seriously* approved yet, man. believe me. I HATE THIS ONE THE MOST because i get banged by the Vice Dean for asking him a sign when there is no letter of confirmation form the HEP unit. Only at that moment that i knew something wrong with the presidents words. T.T damn, i am running for all these for what?

So together with all those things, i can only end this sem with a word, SUCK. i donno other words to describe it anymore. Oh, i am the leaders of many things, lab group la, class rep la, timb exco la, timb brassband leader la, timb bendahari of MAGRA (malam anugerah dekan) la, director of campaign la, upcoming timb director of sports meet of my faculty la (Next year), somemore many are expecting me to be the MPP (majlis pembimbing pelajar). Man, i am suffocating. I am actually in mind of challenging in the Student Council of my faculty again next sem, which this time i seriously want to fight for the seat President. Yet, on second thought, what do i actually do, face, feel, and most importantly drag to my academic? Its a hell sux. Oh, did i mention Maths midterm? Yea, its an epic, FAIL. Just hope that i managed to get a pass. Luckily my group is good in doing assignment, phewww. So, should i or should i not?

Oh ya, i think i forgot to say, i ams till teaching and tutoring. And this is a major factor of tiredness too because i cant spend the free time to either sleep or revise. Haih. But too bad, my family needs my support, and furthermore i am currently trying to buy back my own house, which cost RM4xx,xxx. Hello, i dunno what is wrong but that is ALOT! Even salary of RM2K per month just not enough to get it back la~~~

So, yea, during the week of sick, i have been emoing a bit. wondering why am i actually here. Studying? Learning? don't seem to be because, hmmmmm, well its sucks here. But i do learn alot from some of the good lecturers, such as inorganic( love both lecturer and tutor!). Others, hmmm, just so so. human communication is good, just, haih my own fault. Luckily the lecturer let use to retake the midterm, else? Byebye dean list. Bio and Maths, haih, another two killers, i wonder why but i cant remember biology as well as before, Maths? the eternal bomb for me, never ending booming.

Leading? Yea, i have alot of soft skills that i think i can even share with others already. Being too much of leaders sometimes do not seem to be a good thing. Yet, i need it, i think. Because kinda enjoy it. Socialing? nah, i am socializing everyday that i kind of scare to talk, or tired to talk, cuz everyday i am facing with different kind of people, especially the week i have to go and meet this and meet that. Haih~

Friendship? Hmmmm... this is a good part, because currently my roommate sleep in my house, so, i have someone to @#%^* to if i can't hold it more. And, i kind of enjoy it. Love? Well, except for a bit of forgot about your voice, i think all that i can say is i am placing you as far as i can, and just be the statue admirer, no more, no less.

Haih, so far, just like this first la. I think i will update soon. perhaps for the campaign. Oh, that's are all my mumbling, the facts? I am doing great this week with a fresh start and a fresh thought: "I choose the way, i walk the way."

Aftermath

2011-01-20T01:28:00.002+08:00

So, we met; after such a long time.

Over the days that passed, i thought i eradicated every feelings i had for you.

I didn't think of you, for quite some times already, up to a point that it was like i woke up from a great nightmare.

Perhaps its the workout, perhaps its the tiredness; that made me forgot bout you.

Not till when i saw you today.

I saw your shadow at first, but i didn't recognize its you.

There is this thing about my eyes; they follow you even i don't know its you. Its like a contrast between the color of the surrounding and the person that the eyes told me; something different.

Well i didn't realize anything, so i just stuck to my stuffs.

And there you were, turned and our gazes met.

Its like the world stopped spinning and froze, again.

The unusual rhythm of heartbeat, the abnormal heat of my cheeks.

It was like the engine that has long forgotten get sparked up again.

Real and live.

I made up a stupid wave-smile, i could tell, and you smiled back.

There, at that moment, the wheels of time turned again, lives when on again; and i didn't look back.

It was enough; perhaps but a past.

New Semester, New Life

2011-01-06T16:14:00.003+08:00

So here i am, sitting in one of the chairs that i just sat too much last semester, enjoying the fast wifi in the library, and of course savoring the time with two of my buddies, where they are talking about... pokemon.....:)

So, how was the sem?

I get a pretty great grade, ( dont ask me what is it :P ) a great Christmas dinner and of course a great New Year Eve Night with this steamboat, XD So over the festive seasons, i actually ate too much that my waistline increase that one inch again, sux! So with the new sem starts, of course sure it is about Gym, Swim, Badminton and RUN!

With the new sem starts, its gonna be a long long journey again. New lecturers, new classes, new faces and i still have to do with my brassband!!! ugh~~~ XD

and, i gotta keep up my rep because i am an Assist. EXCO for my program now, hmmm, but so far there is no news bout what should i do...hmmm

by the way, lately been addicted to two dramas, first one is Southland and another one is Perfect Couples. Been craving for them!!! XD and, i just started to watch Glee, woah~ i think i know why it caught my eyes, musics, funny moments, and of course touching moments. :P

well, a quick update, will update more when i am free :)

羽球场上的跳跃

2010-12-16T17:47:00.002+08:00

近日来，这部很久没有再拿起多年前放下的羽球拍的身体，终于在误打误撞的情况下，重拾起那久违的酸累、那紧张的跳跃、那曾经放下的尊严。

九或十年前，我，在经历过胜利与失败后，敌不过失败的滋味，要求妈妈让我退出练习场，加上家庭经济情况开始下跛，妈妈也答应了。从此，我放下了我最爱的那把羽球拍，把我当初爱上羽球的动力放掉，踏出了在那时非常讨厌的羽球场。

九年里，不少的体育课，我都没有尽心的去上羽球课，往往都拿着没有羽球拍，忘了羽球拍来敷衍了事。一直不想想起的，就是曾经对它的热忱。

今年，缘分的编织下，我填上了宿舍活动表格，表示自己愿意参与任何被安排的活动的筹备组，也顺利的被安排在攀登神山（哥打京拿巴鲁山）的筹备组，也顺利争取到筹划部的职位。然而，和我猜测的一样，那个时候，攀登神山根本是不太可能。天气、气候、时间根本就不允许这计划的进行。身为筹划部的我，也逐一证明给组长，这一年，神山——不可能。

因排档出现空档，宿舍学生代表会再次排列新的活动，而这次我却被编排在羽球赛。当下，有点像要拒绝、想要逃脱，可室友的劝解下，我终于点头了。可没有想到的是，我当上了整个羽球赛的负责人，而没有想到，就这样……唤起了我心中的那把火。

比赛空档期间，室友把我拉进了羽球场，向学生代表会借了两把羽球拍，就这样和学生代表会会长和他的拍档，玩起了双打。就在这一刻，手臂很习惯性的绷紧，手腕很习惯性的把球拍转了转，就这样，开始了。

在那短短的三十分钟里，曾经用尽心机去学会的步法，很自然地使了出来。跨步、短球、放球、高打、扣压……等等的，曾经以为自己忘记了的技术，忘记了的步法，忘记了的热忱，就这样一瞬间觉醒了。

那一场结束后，我呆呆的看着我曾经厌恶的羽球场，竟然不再讨厌了。那股被唤醒的热忱，再次燃烧着我的心房。

考试期过了，我买下了和我以前的那把球拍差不多的新球拍，穿上运动裤，系上球鞋带，再次，踏上了曾经离开的羽球场。

现在，我很喜欢在羽球场上跳跃，因为只有在那一刹那，我感觉到生命的光辉。

生命的另一个阶段

2010-12-04T23:54:00.002+08:00

是不是人过二十一就会特别对身边的事物更加得敏感？
还是自己比别人走的路特别不一样，才会造就今天的我？

不知道，也不清楚；只知道，现在的自己，不想要很多很多。
只想要，脚踏实地的，稳稳地，简单的，过生活。
也突然间觉得，单身，其实并没有怎么样。
是有点的寂寞，可寂寞久了，也学会如何过寂寞的生活。

该来的，就该来。
不该得，怎么也不会得到。

这句话，每次自己都会很潇洒地对朋友说。
可不见得自己真的碰上时会那么说。
然而，这次的经验，却也让自己成长。

每一次坠入感情的复杂情环时，往往都把欲望、色欲抛到九霄云外；
全心全意地只想为喜欢的人做事情。
虽然到现在都没有成功过，可发觉到，无欲望的思想，无色欲的生活，
是那么的轻松自在；是那么的让人心情开朗。

无欲望的生活，反倒在这次的失败成为我现在最大的启发。
当然，我可没有圣贤到看破红尘的地步，但我突然灵光一闪，想想：“
如果无欲、无色的思想，能够空出那么多的时间给自己思考更为应该的事物，
那么生活中不就可以体会到简单的幸福吗？”

就是这样，我做了很多的决定。当然当中必然也伤害了他人。
只是，现在的自己，喜欢到操场上去慢步，喜欢在羽球场上跳跃，喜欢在图书馆餐馆和朋友喝茶聊天。
这就是我所想的，没他的。

欲望，就这样一点一点地离开我的思想。
当然，就如我所说的，我还没有到看破红尘、到普陀寺去叩头取法名的地步。
但，能够领悟到无欲，无色的道理，果真是生命的另一阶段啊……

At Least An Answer

2010-10-21T12:31:00.003+08:00

Things been going wild and crazy lately, with all the midterms, quizes settled, the upcoming major matter will be my final term. Seeing that final term is coming only the next two weeks, it is abit of worry since i haven't really finished any revision for any one of my subjects. That would mean, sux.

Still, with my Libra scale unbalance ever since few weeks ago, pretty much nothing could be settled or tackled ever since then. Blame us, the Libras. For always being indecisive, demanding for reason, asking for answer, and just too stupid while foolish to the max, i lost myself back then, within that two particular weeks.

Everything was just so real, so intense, so amazing for the first week. Yet, things got into a 180 degree turnover that this person was like completely vanished from my life. I even had to doubt that whether i actually saw this person in real, and actually talked with this person or not. All that left for me are name, memories, and busted feelings. There are no traces that left behind for me to follow up, except a phone number that could never be reached. All the times i called the calls were diverted to voice mail operator.

Tried as i might to forget, to let go, to pretend that i don't care, yet things are uneasy especially when all of my friends, family, buddies are gone in the night, when i laid on my bed and my mind started to think, i can't deny, i can't avoid, it is very inevitable that i am missing this person. Everytime when i had the thoughts of giving up, phrases from my friends just kept ringing on my mind.

"If this person meant so much to you, why give up so earlier instead of waiting?"

"Its not the question of worth or not worth, its the question of how you feel."

"Ask yourself, do you really want to let go? No, then keep going."

"Why give up only for the first few times? Can't believe you are such weak-minded."

Then all most for all of the times, when i really felt like letting go, the song that always came out from the radio when i switched it on, was the main theme song from Glee.

"Don't stop, believing. Hold on to the feeling."

All these phrases kept me going, until last night.

The feelings that are weaker and weaker, the feelings that just simply overrun by the tiredness that i felt everyday, with all those unthroughable calls, i finally made up the decision to give up. Even though the song of Glee didn't move me this time, and how irony it could be that the song just came in right before i made the decision, but i was not moved. I called up my sis, to talk to her about the matter. She responded that since it was the last resolution already, might as well gamble the last luck or the last path that i had. Now or Never, Once and For all. That was what i was thinking and i decided to follow up what my sis suggested. Another friend called and i told him the matter and he was not really supported the idea but he said he will support me if i were to choose to gamble the last path. Since i bet my life on this gamble, i said the outcome surely was negative, without any doubts on it.

As if i was not fooled enough, fate and destiny played Thier roles in such a way that everything turned out, crazy and wild. The outcome simply came right after 30minutes and it was positive. All that i can scream off was "what the hell?" and "what the F_ _ K?!!" I really do not understand this person at all! Things just simply weird and crazy.

Still, as my heart and my mind were partially dead, i simply just treated things more naturally and let the current flows; and float along with it. Then, life showed the unexpectation again where this person reappeared in my life, simply just appeared in my sight. Nothing could be said, so i just acted naturally and normally.

At last i finally found an answer that this person is not actually meant for me. That things could not have been in the way i felt. Since that was the case, that will mean a close file.

So long, for this real, intense, yet confused and miserable 10 days.

Heart and Mind; Not Functioning Well

2010-10-15T22:40:00.004+08:00

why my heart is eager for the answer,

yet my mind is urging myself to wait?

i can see the future this time,

yet my conscious is doubting the facts.

They say,

Seeing is Deceiving,

Believing is Dreaming.

Can i see and believe in my dream while not be deceived?

They say,

When you found the dreamt one,

You will not let go,

forever and ever.

And i am now doubting,

should i or should i not.

Miserable Day

2010-10-13T21:58:00.002+08:00

Today, practically like the title sounded, was a miserable day. Pretty much throughout the whole day i was being miserably, and endless "sigh" followed.

Started with a great windy gloomy day, of course, wouldn't really expect how things could be just few hours from the time i woke up. Went to university and attended the Fundamental Physics tutorial. Out of the three tutorials that we attended, this one is really the one that i am most happy with, at least we are really learning, not simply attending for the sake of attendance. Had a great time learning F=ma with the tutor, then went for a presentation of one of the soft skills lesson, Work Ethics for Professionals. I was really nervous since i got to rush the 15mins of presentation, cant really drag any points on the slide but kept on tapping the next button. If it were solo presentation i wont be that scare since i pretty much know how to control myself, not with 5 more persons though. So, cooperation and speed talking played the important roles here, and luckily we made it just 30seconds passed 15mins, and lecturer commented that he was impressed, phew~~ So far, still had a great feeling as the lecturer dismissed us as usual and that meant i got the 20mins probability luck gambling increase to 1 hour. Great.

But i was wrong in grambling this one hour, which in the end extended to 1 and a half hour. 90minutes wasted on something that i should not have even started. First trail for my miserably mood, whereby fruitless outcome of the grambling seriously triggered the miserably mood, which in the end i commented to myself:" Life happens when you least expected it. And when you do, only misery follows." How realistic is this.

As if the one and a half hour of lost probibility grambling was not enough, i attended the Organic Chemistry tutorial, which by all means i seriously dont like it. The tutor made fun of me that i got the highest mark for Test 2 and aced it. Thought it as a mood lifter since the shadow casted by the 90mins lost grambling was heavy enough, in return, its just another prank on me. I got 52/100 instead of the A. The real factor that triggered my whole miserable mood. Really unexpected, somehow felt like the dreams of flatting are away...

Called the presiden of my faculty's student council, consulted him in the decision making of joining the Higher Board of the Student Council or not, since yesterday when confronting one of the Vice. Dean actually turned out to be another miserably experience, somehow i doubted my strength and lost of my confidence. My presiden didnt really said much but straight to one point only:" Why you have to care of others comment? You just have to be true to yourself and prove yourself." That... somehow made up my mind, but still i called a friend to talk about the feelings i was dealing with.

Luckily have this friend though, you know who you are :), that i found out i lost two natural abilities over the years of struggling, which are the positive attitude and the driving motivation force. The facts that i already lost these abilities were just so inavoidable, and i actually remembered the feelings with these two abilities with me. So while talking to my friend, i actually regained the confidence and the adventurous feeling came back. The defeated feeling gone right after that, and i walked up to my presiden, gave him the application form, and spoke to him, "Sorry for just now, actually the decisions have already been made in my heart. Its just the emotions mixed up the things. I think I do know what i really want." and i left. All these while, my presiden just expressing an impressed facial expression.

As i walked back, the only two statements were in my mind by my friend were:" If i am ever going to let go of something, let go completely and do not regret over it after that." and "If there is ever a chance for you to be someone that you wanted to be, why not grab it before letting it go? Chance doesnt really appear all the time." So, yea, miserable feelings gone and i went back up to the library and started typing my assignment. The mood lifted abit and finally i put someone aside in my heart as my heart telling me that :" That person might be the one and only one, but that person is also one of the only one in your life."

Almost evening, and i had english test later at 7pm, originally ordered takeaway from outside, but since my time was rushing i decided to join my another friend that heading to the library cafe for dinner. Remember i said "Life happens only when you least expected it."? This is seriously true because just when i dropped my bags and wanted to order food, there fates just showed their blessing on me. The only sentence that was in my mind was:" How coicident could this be? Really least expecting it, huh?" And it turned out that this small little unexpected event actually, was what i really wanted to have today and of course lifted the heavy mood, if only the miracle-bringer knows bout the truth.

How much phrases have it been? Don't count it, and don't expect it. It will just flow to you.

Mind, started to go blank

2010-10-06T17:19:00.004+08:00

How long has it been?

I don't even know,

It feel so long and long that my life suddenly has color.

It felt like in the grey zone of my eye's vision, i finally see color.

And,

my tongue get stuck,

with,

my mind starts to go blank.

FInally done 1 mid-term!

2010-10-05T17:05:00.003+08:00

Yeah~ Finally i done one mid term which is the creative thinking and writing. Speaking of this mid term, it is a drama, where we have to present for minimum 10 mins, we did a drama of P.Ramlee about the cobaan thinggie, as a penghargaan to P. Ramlee being the most reknown and famous drama player, script writer and presenter. Well, at first, the feeling is just not that, cuz we never practice until yesterday, we didnt do the props needed until yesterday, no communication and teamwork occured between the members, everything was just complex, complicated and blurred. But still, since i myself is the one that suggest the time, 4-7pm yesterday as last practice straight till the start of class, i terpaksa lah have to go the practice somemore i am the watak utama, P.Ramlee ==!.

Well forget all the sad things, the feeling rose and the teamwork is just there. Specifically because of a ketam that we all have fun when practicing, with that spirit we brought into the presentation. Everything went out quite well except the technical problem of song, but still its bearable as everyone was spontaneous enough (luckily myself took drama before).

And it turned out that we got 23/30!!! ^^v gosh, so happy with this value since we didnt do much preparation at all, somemore i heard that the other groups didnt get much attention from her!!! ^^v yeah~

So upcoming, gotta focus in my two mid terms, Physical Chemistry and Organic Chemistry. Errr... Isnt it tomorrow got test on English Research for Purpose??? And oh, the exam time table is out!!!

+ Organic Chemistry 9/11 9-12pm Dewan Canselor
+ Fundamental Physics 18/11 9-12pm DKP A1
+ Physical Chemistry 19/11 9-12pm DKP 7

Woah~~ Everything just so packed~~ Each week has a major subject oh!!!! That lagi excluding PPIB, if counted in eh??? ==!

bok bok bok, duda lapok~

Tired~

2010-10-03T19:16:00.003+08:00

Been abandoned my blog for quite sometime, gotta use some update here to make it, err, not that much boring!!!

Finally, the recycle campaign of my faculty/school is done!!! hooray~~~ was kinda tired with this campaign, well being a protocol unit is not that much tired anyway, nothing much to do other than preparing speeches for the director of the campaign, the penolong pendaftar HEP of my school, and most importantly, the Dean of my school!!! ^^v but, he said:" i have the habit of not using the speech readied, so i will just speak like i usually did." which my eyes open wide @_@ and wtf! Nevertheless, i still learnt alot through this campaign especially during the preparation of ending ceremony, can't believe the arrangement of the chairs actually meant something different when its VIP! and even ushering has the first-second step! wow! really protocol unit learns bout that!

Other than that, all i can say is tired and tiring and tire soon! Coming up is two mid terms, on both Thursday and Friday, its Organic Chem and Physical Chem respectively. Many tutorials havent been done, fundamental physics still in Chap 1 even though final term is 8 chapters, tomorrow has a mid term drama presentation, which no practice is officialy done so far. Everything is just not ready! haih~

there is going to be a SST Pilihanraya soon, ask my senior to get two forms, both EXCO and Majlis Tertinggi, wonder which one will be the one i am going to join for eh???

gotta run and study~

Triple-lemma

2010-08-13T22:55:00.002+08:00

Lately been through alot of stress, kinda tiring everyday. With the tiredness, it comes with some achievement, some proudness, some stress, some worries.

I know i promised to update the last post but just couldnt find the time to; even for this post, i will be logging of in few minutes and indulging myself to the words and sentences, being a robotic typer to type out my reports, assignments, projects and all.

Roughly, many assignments and projects are all due within one month, which is a big challenge for me because so far only two projects are on the track but the others are... left untouched. That's what worrying me.

So, to conclude my life, yes, it is fun. Funnier than i initially expected, just tired...

Oh, and i saw the robe that i am going to wear three years from now ( God bless ), and that heat up my turbine and motivated me. I wont waste my time.

Speak of the triple-lemma. Apparantly, i am in "eenie mienie" on three positions, MajlisPerwakilanPelajar(MPP), JabatanKebajikanMahasiswa(JAKMAS-Kingfisher) and/or PersatuanMahasiswa(Science-Tech)????

All three of them looks as attractive as to me, i wonder what should i choose? All three? Just one? Triple-lemma!

UMS randomness #2

2010-07-20T23:17:00.002+08:00

Alright, one and a half weeks is almost done, need some update here.

Last week pretty much was a free week for me, first thing first, as i said NO PPIB classes, no lecturer of organic chemistry, so everything is unsettled. No class of Physical Chemistry, because Ms. Sharain only did a so called intro to us, so, no class, no book, i just done my honey-week.

Oh, my roommate, Wilson came down to KK and stayed 2 days 1 night at my house, hopefully i created a warm and cozy feeling for him, well, i know that oversea studying is really...erm...make people felt homesick. As i needed to work at stall at night, i didn't pretty much accompany him at Saturday night, but i did my best on Sunday to bring him to the reknown Laksa at Gaya Street and to see what we called Gaya Street Free Market. Am pleased that he enjoyed the laksa and the market (not many teens like a hot and sunny open space market). :P After that, before we head back to hostel, we headed to Tanjung Aru, Sabah first beach, luckily he liked it:)
[1st mission of Sabah Tour Guide completed XD]

2nd week started, 2 days had done, 5 days to go. Later will have my first Etika Golongan Profesional at 11am and my first English for Research at 7pm. Wonder what will happen eh?

1st day of this week, i had my Basic Physics, which as expected, no class again. ~.~ Well, we waited from 8am to 9am and there was no lecturer, many were leaving already. As Class Rep of K.I., i have to make sure that nothing goes wrong with the attendance of K.I. students, so even though its a joint class of BioTech, BioPerm and SainsSekitaran, i decided to stand up and volunteer to look for the lecturer for ALL of them. =.=! Wonder where i got my guts from, pretty sure from my friend, Daryl, who happens to be a very dedicated guy. Much more to learn from him! Well of course Daryl accompanied me to find the lecturer, oh ya, he likes to help people. Nice moral eh~ Even i admit lose. T.T

So we walked around the SST, from up to down, just to find the lecturer(s), in the end to no avail we have to return with empty handed. So, we told them no lecturer and they all left. ~.~ Oh ya, met Felicia here, she waited until the end of class becuase she got nothing to do.

So, a bit of hungry at that time, Daryl, Kent(a guy from K.I. too) and I went to canteen and i grabbed a burger and a soya, cost me RM4.80! Actually wanna have waffle but its not ready yet...the TEPUNG is not ready yet!

After the snack, Daryl and I went for our TITAS class, i was at DKP6, he was at DKP5 though. Well, we used up the waiting time on chatting bout food and places of Sabah and Malacca. I found out when you don't really know of any nice places to go for vacation right, best thing is you share food. Because when you share food, you tend to share the culture and history and background behind! :P

Malacca, felt like going to visit this place sooner or later. After hearing Daryl comments, hmm, definitely confirm with the fact that Malacca is always my first destination if i were doing a West Malaysia vacation! Joaane, be my tour guide! Daryl, including you too! :p

Then TITAS class, not too bad, history of civilization, always been something that i wanted to learn. Nice, a free class for me:P finally can learn something literature after so much science theories! Felt a danger here because...somehow...the lecturer was just focusing on...me?? Class Rep Warning Zone!!!

-to be continued- will just edit on this post.

UMS randomness - Stress to Free -

2010-07-13T23:36:00.002+08:00

Its always the darkest before the dawn.

Guess that is always a true fact.

Last night i didn't pretty much sleep well, even in the dream i also dreamt something related to my courses and timetable, man!!! It seriously sucks actually, a timetable with no credit hours at all! How am i going to survive!! I don't want to be extended due to these kind of technical problems!!!

Oh ya, before mentioned bout what happened on my timetable, let's talk about the first day, the first class on 12th July 2010. Its Physical Chemistry Basic 1. Hmm, other than wasted half and hour just to find the lecture room, which is like N-km from the parking lot and i burnt alot of calories thanks to that, the class turned out... surprising. I am appointed as the Class Leader of Year 1 Industrial Chemistry, which is a total surprise for me. Now, how do i get appointed? All thanks to my 38 mouth that asked Ms. Sharain, apparently the lecturer of Phy Chem, during Q&A section with staffs of Industrial Chemistry and when she asked for any volunteer of the class leader, noone of course did so.

So, actually i do know that she will appoint me, because through out the whole section, she is directing her attention on me, and my heart is like:" Okay, no escape le this time." =.=! Well after all, this is like a respond to my wish, because i had always wished that i will have a kind Class Leader in my univeristy life so that he/she will provide me with first hand information on time reschedule or whatever, which is a MUST for my tight shcedule. Now, like an answer to prayer, i myself is the Class Leader, and of course i got all the first hand information all the time, wondering this is good or what? Speak of it, they named the Class Leader as Class Strap, how they spell it actually? Strap? Kinda weird

Anyhow, the class ended within one hour, and i together with my two new friends, Kevin and Daryl, both Chinese though, we went to the library to register for the Library FAQs Induction thing. I didn't bring along my Orientation Week Temporary Student Card, so i had to drive back to my hostel to get it. Oh by the way, i got my hostel at KingFisher! Which is seriously the best of all the hostel! Family-based hostel, double story terrace. I got my room at the Master Room, together with one Johor's Chinese, Wilson and one Sabahan Faizal. We got our own toilet in that room too^^v Other than that, there are still three others which are 1 Sabahan and 2 Sarawakians.

So i got my Temp Card and rushed back to Library, glad that Daryl still waiting for me, met up with Farica, Jason and Jaqueline, all registering^^ After that, went to PIBB, the language center, to ask whether we have PIBB classes this whole week, it turned out that we seriously don't have any PIBB classes at all for this whole week, and Jason was like:" tulah, don't trust me, i said liao." =.=!! Sorry loh Jason~

After that Jason, Daryl and me went back to library for lunch, because PIBB doesn't have any cafeteria, =.=! Jason and I had Penang Laksa at RM3.50 and Daryl has a chicken rice at RM4++, the laksa tasted great, though no meat at all, only a half-sliced boiled egg and alot of vegies included onion, cucumber and chili. Yes, CHILI!!! Its super duper hot one! Luckily i pick coconut as my beverage~ And all cost me RM5, hmm, the cafeteria still got alot to taste on, will try out each and everyone of them!

After that Daryl went to 1-Megalab and Jason and I went to UMTP to register the wifi. After that, home sweet home~

At night, that was the time i found out my timetable is reverted to zero credits hour. So i didn't sleep well, and the exercise on the next day didn't do with whole-heartedly, even though my body is giving alarm that i didn't concentrate and focus but my mind just kept on wondering far far away. Felt so guilty to my body, the exercise later should be done with real focus and concentration!

Went to university and met up with Lewis, another coursemate of mine, and we had a breakfast talk over the table, and i enjoyed it :) ah, i met Rendarll here. You guys remember Ralph? His bro is here too, Rendarll. Somehow, i just felt life is indeed unpredictable, one two years before, Rendarll first appeared in my life as my senior prefect, one year later he hecame my junior as i am the senior(Form6 to Form5). Another year later, at 2010, we became colleagues, same Year and expected to graduate together. How unpredictable it is eh? Rendarll is officially my junior, my senior and my colleague. ~.~!

And then, went to class, waited for 45mins, someone suggested that Dr. How is on leave, so as CL i went to check out, luckily met up with Ms. Sharain and she confirmed the Dr. How is not here, so i went back and announced to all of them, and we are all free for this whole long week =.=! Then i busy collected the money for the photocopy of notes, luckily Daryl helped out :)

Went to PIBB again, to ask about the academic registration, luckily the Timbalan Dekan said its not my fault so i can just go to the time that i registered for each course and just remember to re-registered back after the system is up again.

At evening, i check on SMP again, to my delight, my academic registration is back to the original one :) So, now i just have to try to switch two subjects that i do't want and change it with subjects that i like... hmmm...but hor, SMP is DOWN AGAIN!!! I hate it la~~

p/s: going to hostel to clean up the house~

University Malaysia Sabah - Better Than I Imagined -

2010-07-12T21:56:00.004+08:00

University Malaysia Sabah, or UMS, has always left a kind of image where it is very beautiful at the outside, but totally speechless inside. After one whole week of orientation, is it true with the statement i just stated?

IN the end, i came up with a solution i.e. UMS actually is equally strong from the outside and the inside. And that is enough to make me appreciated to where i am studying in the next few years.
Orientation Week of UMS, although not as crazy as Chin's which is 15 talks overall, still we have about 6-7 talks roughly and each took almost 2 hours, especially talk of PKPP(Co-curricular activity center) which took the whole afternoon from 12noon to 5pm!!!

As for all the programs we played, not that much worth mentioned, just not too harsh and too excessive heavy, thanks god already!

Only one thing to mention, why all the VIPs always like to be late??? Hate it very much though. If any of you became a VIP in the future, please remember to be punctual, not that much of time wasted on VIP is always a good idea.

Now finally enter the start of Semester one, everyone is in confusion as the system of academic registrtion UMS are all broken, wonder why. My registration all reverted to empty!!! And i am trying to solve it now, my perfect timetable is gone!!! Stress!!!

Industrial Chemistry - UMS -

2010-06-20T14:16:00.002+08:00

Finally IPTA result was out on Thursday!!

As much as i fear for and hope for, i did successfully be offered my first choice, Industrial Chemistry by University Malaysia Sabah.

I know its not the best choice according to Mr.Chua as he does hope me to opt for KL university with my result, yet i am really appreciated with what i got. At least for the next few years i don't really have to worry much about things around my family; if there IS something, i am still within the distance.

i messaged Mr.Chua right after i got my result, other than congratulated me, he said something that left me in deep thought and long touched feeling.

When there's a will, there's a way.

Its a new beginning, face it with new attitude!

Especially the italic word, how true is that! Guess whenever i felt beaten again, i have the pharse, when there's a will, there's a way, to keep me motivated again! Thanks again , Mr.Chua!

Appreciation is made to my boss, Mr. and Mrs. Lim also, for without them, i won't consider Chemistry as my first choice, other than the influcene from Mr. Chua. At least i can see my future, for the next 5 years, :)

Thanks to my mom and my younger bro also, for they are the bigget motivation, to make me walk until now! ^^v

So, now, officially walking into the door of university, guess my 21st year does mean a lot to me!

BackStreetBoy - As Long As You Love Me

2010-06-12T11:58:00.003+08:00

This is one of the songs, back when i was a kid, that left great memories for my childhood phase. Well, guess children around the 80s and 90s won't get confused with BackStreetBoys, Westlife and somemore NKOTB, well, all are my favourite boys bands, all have thier own charming side, all have thier own nice songs, :)

Now, today, i just so have the feeling with BSB's song, As Long As You Love Me, man, i heard it the other day in the radio while driving, felt so nostalgic suddenly. :)

Oh, and this song, kinda in regard to my "that" dream, XD

one thing though, i don't like smokers, druggers!

World Cup 2010

2010-06-11T09:03:00.005+08:00

Well, its World Cup 2010 tonight, the start of the craziness of the boys, and girls(girls nowaday do watch soccer~, heeps~).

And this year Anthem is kinda pop, haha, and rap too:)

kinda like the feel of the song, making you feel the excitement of the soccer, and of course, the start of fun! that's the original version, from South Africa's singer, K'naan. Nice work~

Now, here's the Chinese Version, 旗开得胜, which i also like, original by K'naan, feat by Jacky Cheung(张学友) and 张靓颖, really like Jacky's voice!!!

张学友的歌声实在是让人完全感觉到那雄厚澎湃的感觉！太爱他的声音啦~
张靓颖的声音则在雄厚澎湃之中参插出一种的温柔和定力，妙！

But still, i like 2006's Fifa World Cup Anthem, which was by Toni Brixton and IL Divo, "The Time of Our Lives". My favourite Anthem, :)

Note: Videos are taken from Youtube.com, if the original uploader wanna me remove the video, just leave a comment at the comment box, thanks ya~especially IL Divo's vid, :)

Man!!! I want this!

2010-06-10T09:10:00.006+08:00

>.<, T.T If i ever completed this dream in my entire life, man, i seriously won't regret anything at all EXCEPT the previous dream; i.e. if this is done, i still need that dream to become my reality, XD

Was checking on yahoo page when i suddenly saw this on the headline http://uk.cars.yahoo.com/09062010/36/luxury-yacht-comes-free-custom-supercar-0.html
The Yatch is named Strand Craft SC122, desgined by Eduard Gray.
Man, its a supercar comes together with a yatch, and, a luxurious one!!! >.<, £17m , where to get that much of money!!! But, still, i want it~~~ Aegh~~~ make me a millionaire~

Note: Photos take from YahooPage, i don't own any authority rights to those pictures.

p/s: i still want my previous dream~~~

Best Dream In My Life

2010-06-09T08:50:00.001+08:00

Last night, i had the best dream in my life.

If i were able to live this dream, i will have no regret in my life.

^^v

Keys To The Kingdom - The Final Act -

2010-06-07T14:22:00.002+08:00

Finally, Gartn Nix, the author of the teens adventurous novel series, Keys To The Kingdom, has finally got done with the last book, Lord Sunday~~

T.T i felt a sudden nausea to the day i first read the first book, Mister Monday, which is around three years before, and i found the book, together with the second book, Grim Tuesday, in my high school library, STTSS. Man, and i never would expect that i ended up reading it until now.

Mister Monday

Grim Tuesday

Drowned Wednesday

Sir Thursday

Lady Friday

Superior Saturday

Lord Sunday

Man, and these are all in three years~
Though i have half-expected the ending, still, the ending brings me the sudden sadness after all.

Spoiler ahead!

Arthur Penhaligon, the hier to the House, the Universe and the Secondary Realms, finally fought till the last, only found out that he was betrayed by the Will, which after all is the Architect who went missing out of sudden. All are actually controlled by the Will, the Architect, and everyone was just the checkers on the checkboard for her to achieve the ultimate goal; the total destruction of universe.

The reason being? Architect grew tiredsome and mundane about whatever she has been doing, yet she can't end her life, so, she picked a mortal, Arthur to end everything.

Well, of course things won't be that dark, after all, Arthur is te wielder of the Seven Keys, won't be defeated even by the corruption of Nothing, the darkness that can corrupt and corrode everything. So, Arthur rebuilt the world, everything managed to come back alive just few seconds before the total destruction; but only his mother, Emily, didn't resurrect because she was just so unfortunate to be trap within the House, and the House gone with Nothing.

Arthur chose not to rebuild Emily, even though he has the power to do so, because, he rather she be his memory, then another copy of his own hand.

Man, this is really SAD~~~ So, yea, this is not a happy ending novel. Princess Jamilah! This is ont of those that is not happy ending!!!

T.T With this series ended, perhaps i will go for another sequel by Garth Nix also...something with symbols...

Speak of symbols,

currently digging through Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol after one whole week of Garth Nix's Lord Sunday(yes, one week!). And, The Lost Symbol isn't started like Angels & Demons or Da Vincci Code before, which has a clear view. The Lost Symbol? everything is lost man, i am lose in my own thoughs, guessing out all those clues, hmmmmm~~

Anyway, Garth Nix, you really did a good job!! Will continue to support your books~

Quotation

2010-06-02T23:07:00.004+08:00

In regards to the post before, actually i forgot to put in a quotation which is closely related to the phrase :" Get a life and live your life, pal!"

so yea, let's put in the quotation.

I wonde you guys watched KungFuPanda before?? remember what the master tortoise said? which is very remarkable one when he left Panda(forgot his name, XD) behind?? He said:"

Yesterday is History.

Tomorrow is Mystery.

Today is a Gift. That's why its called Present.

Now this quotation has been one of my favourites. It completely showed you how important is appreciating whatever you have and don't take things for granted.
Yep, i have another one, which is, i think, a sequel to that quotation, :)

This quotation is actually originated from my friend, Renge, which she said:"

Your Past, is what built you today.

你的过去，就是筑起现在的你的原料。

Yep, another quotation from her which actually telling people not to indulge in your own past too much.

Past, is only for us to look back on our own mistakes; to learn to be correct in the future.

Past, is only for us to look at the glorious moments; to smile upon a memory.

So i extended it and it became:"

Your Future, is what you built from today.

你的未来，就是你现在所筑起的。

Hmm, i don't think i need extra citation on this? So, let summarize it, and it became:

Yesterday is History.

Tomorrow is Mystery.

Today is a Gift. That's why its called Present.

Your Past, is what built you today.

Your Future, is what you built from today.

Now that's better, and more perspective.

Lastly?

Get a life and live your life, pal!

Weird Dream

2010-06-01T11:29:00.002+08:00

Last night, i dreamt about something that made me felt... weird...

Well, let's get on to it.

Its 12-02-2012.

Now, i suppose with the movie of "2012" on show before, most of the people know what's going on on that year. Though scientists stated that 2012 won't be a doomsday, only two weeks of electrical gadgets dysfunction, still, leave many doubts and wonders within people's mind.

Now to be exact and accute, 2012 prediction is by Maya Tribe, and the Mayans (is this their name??) predicted it is on 24-12-2012...so, kinda like a big big difference from my dream's date, which is 12-02-2012. So that would be errrr.... 10 months 12 days differ...hmm...

So what happened on that day? well at least in my dream?

I dreamt that on that particular night, a huge white oval dish-alike airship descended from the space(alien maybe?) and stood there motionless. After a second, the oval dish-alike thinggie open the top cover, err, something like the Dorayaki Doraemon always ate and just imagine you open the top cover, yep, and there are plenty spaces inside.

So, many people rushed into it, most of them are young adults, teenagers and children. Well from what i could remember is, my younger brother and I were also rushed into it, or should i say, forced by my mum to get into it. And of course i didn't want to, but somehow, Obama was there?? Huh? And what Obama said was:" Youngsters are the power for future. We old mans aren't have many days to live. Live on and see what will happen to the world."

Yep, something like that, he said that. So, as a result, my bro and I went in to the strange airship. Just right after i went in, i realized that i didn't have the photo of my mom and the first thing i reacted was jump right up and wanna get to my mum. Sadly, the airship cover is closing in and there is one part that already shut and locked. And i turned my head, looking at my mum, and i only saw her back.....

(not sure how long has been...)

My bro laid beside me, in the dark, somehow it isn't cold, yet just dark with nothing inside, only humans. We don't feel hungry or have the need for toilet...Just dark and we sat motionless, the only thing i am thinking is, Mum.... And i kept on visualize the image of my mom, the photo which my mom, me and my bro taken.... and the only thing i know is i miss her, and home....

What had happened afterward?? I don't know and i don't remember...

the only thing i know is, the dream changed scene and the oval-dish alike airship is eaten by a giant, LOL... Felt weird eh?? And ya, all the humans managed to get out of the airship before it is eaten by the giant... LOL? Strange isn't it?

So what did i get from the dream? Panic? Anxiety?

Nope, the only thing i know and i get is, live my life to the full, and appreciate the one i love and i miss. because if there really comes the 2012, at least, i won't feel regret and i will witness the world with all my loves.

Get a life and live your life, pal!

P/s: NOTE, i didnt watch the move "2012", so supposely i don't know what is with the movie and please, people, don't say :"you watch too much 2012 la~~~", nope, i didn't watch.

Happy Teacher's Day!

2010-05-16T23:54:00.002+08:00

Its Teacher's Day but i didnt get the chance to get back to either STTSS or SMLS to greet my teachers so, kinda felt bit upset bout it, anyway, five minutes more and today is going to end!! So i will just make this short,

~!!!HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!!~

Last but not least, Thanks to all the teachers that have made me today!!! Especially, 、庄老师，戴老师，Ms Chin YF, Sir Adrian, Pn. Agatha, and of course, Mr. Chua!!!

Thanks to all of you and of course those i didn't mention cuz its just too long!!

And also, Happy teacher's day to ME~~~~ weee~ i'm also a half teacher what, XDDD

May all teaches have a great day today!

Graduation Ceremony STPM 2009

2010-03-25T23:29:00.005+08:00

25th of March 2010, after much excitement and anticipation, finally we attended the graduation ceremony for STPM 2009. Throughout the whole ceremony, its very memorable especially when we were taking lots and lots of photos. Almost before i left the hall and heading back home, suddenly memories about my previous high school in STTSS came back. And i am glad that i didn't make the stupid mistake like i did previously and i am glad that i enjoyed this ceremony with a cheerful mind, and that i had made every moments on that day memorable.

The photos are all with Emmelly, for her dad, who is a very professional free-lancing photographer ( i think so ), came and helped us did the photographing things. Special thanks to Emmelly's dad for he is very good and pro!!!

to P.A. teacher, Pn Marianna:

Thanks for everything, though i always snooze off in the middle of class, well, you are really good in hypnotizing anyway, :P I treasure the moments we spent together, be it in class or in club. Thanks for giving me the chance of becoming the President of P.A. (thx for Pn. Jamilah also), though i admit that i am not the best President of P.A., i really learnt alot in running an organization and most importantly, dos and don'ts in dealing with formal stuffs. really appreciate for all of that if not, i won't even getting an A for my CCA, which sounds far for me, ^^v Sorry for never getting a good result in your P.A exam, but i guess i payback by never failed in your exam. All in all, you are one of the teachers that i thank sincerely, Thank You.

to Mathematics teacher, Ms Voo:

First and foremost, i apologize for always skipping your class, yes i admit that i like to skip Maths and always searching for the chance to skip Maths, :P. Though i always late in hand in homework and always failed your tests and exams, i have to say a big big Thank You to you because now i felt like i am more like an Add-Maths student compared to when i was in my high school; at least i do know all the syllabus and the basic formulae, and of course the basic application. So to conclude, i thank you for being never-lose-hope-and-faith in me, and i think i do pay you back by getting a B- in the exam. Thanks for everything. And teacher, i still disbelief that you are 30++....

to Biology teacher, (i do think that not mentioning your name is a respect to you):

For you, i thank you for that particular scene that i learn: sometimes wasting your time talking to a person that always think that himself/herself is true and correct is the lamest, stupiest and most idiot thing in the world. That's why now when i get so irritated, i chose not to be furious about it; that is really a good lesson from you. Academic wise, i can't fake by saying you teach us, or me, well as we both know, i never pay my attention in your class, perhaps my standard is not up to your standard that i felt "dut" in listening your class. So i have to say, the A- of Biology, serioulsy, is my own effort, those who close to me do know how i study Biology and they do know that i never listen in your class. So, no point saying that you are this and that, just have to say thank you fer being the "teacher" for one of the life-lessons in my life, and that's it for you. From now on, i won't remember the furiousity, i only will remember the lesson. Oh and one thing, i prove you wrong.

to Physics teacher, Pn. Chai:

I felt ashamed when i talk to you, mostly because i felt like a frog that hop to Biology after one semester, perhaps its because of self-esteem problem. Nevertheless, you are really a good teacher, and i admire your motivation and determination, i do hope that i can be like you, teach like a god. ^^v Other than that, sorry for always causing technical problems, i am trying to fix myself about my own carelessness. Still, i respect you, even though we are just student-teacher for that five months, :P Thank you. And please do smile a lot ^^v

to MUET teacher, Sir Adrian:

To me, you are really the best English teacher i ever had. I never participated in English activities as much as i had during your lessons. Thanks for always giving me the chance to prove and to voice out. Though i only get a Band 4 in MUET, i still thank you for everything. Because of you, i listen to Hitz.FM and Mix.FM alot these days and of course being more and more fluent in speaking section. Sir, do you still remember the first day? Ayam? I.M.? haha, i never and won't forget that day. I will treasure every memory with you of that one and a half year, for you are really amusing!

to my classmates, Upper Six Science:

i am very glad to have you all as friends, really. Though i seldom participated in most of the activities you guys organized, and i really felt sorry for that, yet i thank you all for being able to tolerate with me. Maybe at some points that i had pissed anyone of where i don't realize, i apologize for being that inconsiderate. All in all, the memories with you all in this one and a half year is seriously treasure to me. I will treasure every moments, be it sad or happy, and keep in touch, U6S!

to prefect board and Pn. Agatha:

thanks for everything, is all i want to say. I learnt alot, though we always have hardship to face for we always seem to be getting trouble from the school, yet the moments and cooperation that we had seriously amazed me. Thank you for being part of the 1 and a half year in LS!

Pn. Agatha, i thank you for accepting the fact that i cannot always stay and help. Thanks for being tolerate to me, and i know i always amke things rough, still i am proud to be a prefect of yours, Pn Agatha! And i am very happy for you can hear me out during that particularly life-scene. Thanks for giving me the advice to fight through that problem. Really, thank you!

and lastly,

to Mr. Chua, the GTO 09:

a photo taken on STPM result day

You are the man! I have loads and loads, tons and tons of appreciation that i want to say, but pointing each of the points out practically sound stupid. Yet using a short sentence to say it out doesn't seem to be impressive enough. So in the end, i got a WORD, seriously a word, from a card and i know this word can express everything: Thanksawholelot!

Thanks for always having faith in me, for that's what keeps me running until now.
Thanks for being one of the "turning points" in my life, i never know Chemistry is so clicked into me.
Thank you, is really all i want to say because i just couldn't express them good enough.
and there are many many more "thanks" that i have, yet, its just too long.... :)
SO, yes, thanksawholelot! And you will be always the GTO 09!

Thank you, Mr. Chua!

and that ended the life of me in this school, LS. Though i had been hoping this day to come, as early as possible, so that i can leave this school forever. Yet, i found out that, i will always go back to this school, because there are memories and treasures that still wait for me to embrace'em.

Once again, thanks again for everyone who know me, be it we are just hi-bye friends, so called enemies, or some real deal friends! Thank you!

-photos will be uploaded as soon as possible -

Randomness #1

2010-03-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

I came across a quote from my junior in my Form 6 school in facebook just now, he said:

"Don't tell me you love me unless you really meant it, because i might do something crazy like believe it..."

by T.H. Gimfil

Well, just how true is that.

Love really can kill.

The Climb - Miley Cyrus -

2010-03-13T23:35:00.004+08:00

A music video dedicated to the article " A Talk Between He and She ", the links are:

" A Talk Between He and She " (part 1)

" A Talk Between He and She " (part 2)

Lyrics:

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

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Notice the chorus:

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

A Talk Between He and She (part 2)

2010-03-13T18:43:00.003+08:00

continue from "A Talk Between He and She (part 1)"

She agreed by nodding her head, then she fell into silence. That silence spoke the whole thing; they were both tired with their daily lifes, how life had made them into such situation, how life had been no mercy on them, how struggling they were just to get through every day life. She looked on the floor, as in staring at it would make things better. He looked at the sky, he wondered when could he soar freely in the sky.

She broke the silence by asking, " then how can you get through those years? and what bout working while studying in your STPM?"
He said it with a cheerful noice, "well, sometimes when life makes sadness on your life, it also makes happiness in your life. Yea, sure i live a hard life even now, yet i felt the warmth when i saw i could lighthen up my mom's burden, that life is turning better, and i am getting better. About my STPM life, surely its all because of a person that believes in what i could achieve and thanks to this person, i am working with the intelligence that he taught me. Sometimes you can acheive something that sound so impossible before if you have the motivation and motivator in your life. You got to find out your own driving force, the force that drives you thourgh everything."

Later of the conversation, its all about advice on her job and future plan. The time was ticking and he had to go back to his workplace. Time was up. She said, " I am glad that i actually asked you to come out, even though you didn't buy the insurance; at least i found out that i have someone to talk to. Really, thank you. And i wonder how could you be that mature" "yea, welcome, my pleasure. Find me as long as you feel like to. About that, if 5 years of hardship still couldn't make me mature, then my life is considered a failure."

They bid goodbye and promised to meet up in the future. When he turned and left, a thought was in his head, " Life sure is hard, but if you can get through it, you will be a better man." And never he thought before, how much lucky he was to meet one of the turning points in his life at his numeral of 21.

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p/s: this article is based on reality of two teenages, he is 21-years-old and has been working ever since 16-years-old. She is 19-years-old and has been working ever since 16-years-old too. The main objective of this article is, to tell the teens nowadays, when you are using your money to eat those luxurious food, buy those luxurious clothing, wondering whether later should have movie or upperstar, and living your life luxuriously without considering the facts that money is hard to find, there are still people out there struggling their daily lifes just to have 3 meals per day.

pp/s: this article is composed by me, any resembler is just coincidence.